Today is already February *HI FEBRUARY*
Lying on the bed, closed my eyes and flash back, i feel weird. Life seems fast and slow. It always feels like it was only yesterday I went to watch movie with him, but the fact is it was already a month ago. Haha ^_^ll how do i define this weird feeling, i don't know.

Maybe because things between us are going at peaceful pace; due to distance, with routine calls and texts, while life here is going at 180kmh on the fast lane. Discovering new things, meeting new people, learning new chapters, chasing dreams. It's exciting.
One part of me want certain things to be paused; one part of me want other things to be fastforward.

Learning to balance time for all the things that I want to do in a day. To work, to agape?, to social, to exercise, laundry, parents, kinzaloo, wunwun, to rest, to play, to learn cooking, to berhiao dancing, ..... how impossible. But it's okay. Do it alternately, do it biweekly, do it monthly, as long as i do, i won't feel as bad ~.~

Life at Hairyhau is ever changing. One minute I got promoted to do sales designer. One minute ipad comes. Another minute a new rendering laptop comes. I dono how to say it but i find the law of attraction is really awesome. I remember all the things that i have now, I used to wish for them. I was wondering how good it is if I can work outside without being tied to office hour, finding friends for lunch, meeting and learning how to deal with different people, and now what i want is before my nose. I was wondering if I wanna get a pc to do freelance, suddenly a rendering laptop will be coming. Imagine I can draw at home T____T sugoii na~ since small, i always felt i have a guardian watching me from above. *facepalm*

I remember last time I told ma, if anyone has special eyes, they'll see a halo ring on above me.
Ma : WHY.
Me : Dongnooo... I just feel I'm special like that.


: Believe : Really love this word. "All things are possible to those who believe" -by forgot-who
Wanna make this my life pioneer motivation :D
Start with believing.

I believe I will wake up at 6.30 later.
(close mouth laughing)
~.~

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Posted at 3:11 AM

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Posted at 3:10 AM

Konbanwa i mean ohaiyo =_______= it's 1:51am on a monday morning and i've been flipping on bed almost an hour yet cant seem to sleep at all. Wakao~ next time no matter what must not teh tarik again. I swearrrrr!!

Last night, went to pre-cny clothes shopping with pa & ma again. Perhaps it's the funniest time of the year.. It feels precious, could it be because that's the only time of the year i actually bring them shopping? @.@ wakao couldnt be.. Maybe because cny is the festive season for family together.. I hope many years to come it'll always be like this.

I've been living like a zombie for the past week. Havent recover fully from sick yet had to go to site is the most horrible nightmare i can think of atm. And also because all the while i've been restless about agape. ID feels like an idiot job that works extra hard for a little money. Kept tellin it's not what i want to do, it's not what i want to do but that's the place i have most confidence with, that's the place i know i can do it good. I guess until i can finallyyyyy declare i dont want to do it, else i need to find an equilibrium to stay with the job with a motivated heart at the same time make myself getting more & more familiar with agape. I guess fear of agape is simply because i am not familiar with it. And also because i'm lazy. Laziness has taken its toll on me seriously. Where is the me that i used to? Le sigh.. I guess until i plan for how i want to go about, if not i'll stay restless worryin abt simple things. Planninggggggggggggggggggggg pls.

Today anata had been away for a week. 59weeks to go~~ he had been settling down fine and learning nihongo at the fast lane lol the heart of missing feels as though an anchor is pulling your heart down.. Or soaked in a cup of vinegar.. Sometimes whole day long +_+ Used to think it's sad but now i think it's fine... It means care.. Missing someone means you care ok momo.. When you don't miss already barulah sad.. *self console mode*

Wakao na why i still dont feel sleepy at all??????
Why i forgot teh tarik is insomniac??????
Heruchan lai count sheep wit me +_____+

2012 resolution!!
1. I wana save 50k this year.
2. I wana be an independent sales designer >:l
3. I wana achieve something in agape.
4. Doing sales coz wana train my low EQ. Must learn how to deal with difficult clients with a smile and optimism *type also feels sipek hard lol* that means seeing client call at 9pm and say "wah!! Sugoii!! Lai answer" =.=
5. I must perservere on. I must. I must. I will. I will not give up.
Focus on the solution, not the problem. Sian, if you expect everythings gonna be easy, you are not learning and moving forward. Then what's the difference with being a promoter forever?
6. I will control my temper. I will not get angered easily.
7. I wana go find anata in nihon.
8. I wana hit sales and go to korea this year trip.
9. I must take care of health. Exercise everyday!! Must!!
10. I wana learn cooking & baking..
11. It clashes with #1 but somehow hope to take dancing classes. Hope kkkl faster graduate and beg her to take belly dance class with me lol
12. Hope to keep wunwun coz pa & ma say it everyday asking me to put him at bakuteh stall ToT

WHY AM I NOT SLEEPY YET??!!!!!!
Resolutions are never written for fun unless a good for nothing drunk.
Hope i'll be able to achieve one by one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lastly, hope i'll fall asleep before 3 tonight +.+

Labels: M o r u, ME, Occasion

Posted at 2:49 AM

Rainy day today... Luckily today neednt go out. Done pretty much things although still feeling very weak.. Shit~ when can i fully recover? I cannot stand living like a corpse.

Havent talked to anata since yesterday noon... Couldn't stop thinking about him.. Not used to not talking to him this long.. Pluppykun muz be missing him too..

Hope all things settled down smoothly there~
Been a while since i said "it's showdry time"

>_<

Labels: Daily Vege, M o r u

Posted at 8:44 PM

It's 0758 now. Tuesday. Cant sleep since 5.. Been wondering he must be sleep sitting stiffly in the plane now. Later he gona krak krakkk kraakkk his bones again. Did he feel cold? Is he over Nihon skyline already? Is he hungry? T______T

Usually by this hour, his bell would ring for assembly.

Was feeling so unwell yesterday, never had those type of headache before i thought doc must hab given me wrong med & i'm gonna die young & buried in sardin =.= sudden hunger was so uncomfortable it's like twisting your intestines in. Why i have to fall ill on those last few days?

His flight is scheduled to reach Kansai at 0840. MAYBE HE ALREADY REACHIE NA!!!!!
Osaka time is one hour ahead!!!!! Wakao na wakao na Heru-chan... Hope everything goes smoothly there. It's winter now, please keep yourself warm..

Today Pa will be delivering to Genting. Hope the lorry will be ok. Bobi bobi.

Later i'll need to go to site again. Falling sick and goin to site again.. Need to focus back on life. Recently been off track a lot.

Labels: M o r u, ME, Occasion

Posted at 8:13 AM

Woke up today from an irritating dream by a phonecall. Unable to continue sleeping.
First thing that cross my mind is, today's friday already.
Right now, my heart feels as though it's being soaked in vinegar. Cant help the stupid tears.
Maybe falling sick made you feel vulnerable but everytime i imagine him gonna be so far away, i-

Hope he'll be safe there...
Hope he'll have the best times of his life in his fav country..

One year to me is really long... I hope both of us wouldnt change..
I don't know what future may bring but i hope we wouldnt change...
Because when we do not change, no matter how hard the situation might be, we'll find ways to stay together..

T_____________T

Labels: M o r u

Posted at 11:28 AM

Ohyoshyosh!!
sound of watertank bishibashing under roof and some motor running behind the street.
Feeling: neutral
Stomach: bloated filled wit water wana uwek edi

Sho kol on air cond whole night wake up the next day u'll find an iced corpse wrapped in multiple blankets with a teddy bear. Who asked you to put controller in wardrobe wakao hohoho

It's December again. It's time to reflect on what that had been done for the whole year and plan for the next year. Haik!! 2012 resolution kambing soon :D
I will start Agape liaoooooo *cross heart* dato's so right. If u cant change ur mind, u cant change a thing. If u're going to be in the comfort zone forever, u'll be in the same spot forever. *semangat gilang gemilang* Hope i wont be doing full time ID soon. The other day was first day av yet have to go to site til afternoon T____T felt like collapsing. Luckily Mikiao said gonna hiring a site supervisor soon. Hang in here momo. All hardships will pass :)

The other day BP came down to klang right after his car jz back frm workshop @.@, i brought him to Chow Kit bkt coz u tell me where to hab bkt at 9.30pm =__= then we went to i-city kaosai i dislike that place =_= chatted abt work, gathering, collegemates, more work, where to travel next year (wahooo!!!) and relationships (ok~~) nani doko dare nande. I wonder......what will turn out to be like if it were to happened 6 months earlier. Why is it everytime when i've moved on things came running back.... When the feelings have moved on, i wont look back.

**
I haven't been really aniticpating for christmas since 08. I used to hope it to pass as fast as it could because i couldnt stand festive season with bitter memories but this year i'm really looking forward to collect all the kurismasu trees yeahoo!! I hope to remember all the details... I - i- hope next year i can celebrate xmas in nihon na!! Wakao heart skip a beat gonna faint. Have to print out and stick everywhere as law of attraction already nyahahaha

Wakao 9am dokodarenandenaniiiii hehe gonna be late as always momo-chan :)

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Posted at 9:09 AM

Ohaiyo!

Woke up before alarm is very rare in my history muahahaha (cept if goin on a trip or doesnt need to work) LOL
This time it was also bkoz of stomachache. Wei auntie, why u haz a late? ToT
Been throwin tantrum again. Even showed a dark face to fat boss and ma said "employee how can like that!!??" lol

I cant control it!!!!!!!!!!!!
Harggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! *stabs fork into pillow and eats the cotton* o.O, heard atp4 haz come. Gotta take epo seriously liao~

*
yesterday (30.nov)
Was the first (and last holymama) time i got into a car accident.
YESSSSSSSS!!!!!! Princess Yuki is hurt!! *uwa* she's just a month old i feel so keksim.
I've been worse. There's a time i did the same while goin fast lane on highway.

I guess god just want me to learn a lesson T_____T
Thanks God I'm fine *self slap 360"

Yingying said it's lack of blood. Lavkofbloodlackofbloodlackofblood. Every tcm told me lackofblood but every tcm also has no improvement. Told ma she said it's her fault +.+ so she expect me to blame her? +.+

Cant take leave!!! Sien!! Ja!

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Posted at 8:16 AM

"Wen Wen"
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"Wen Wennnn"
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"heeeikkk, Wen Wennn"

What-- nani-- doko-- dare-- nande with ottosan keep calling Wun Wun early in the morning =__=
*stares at clock; 8.15*

Haihzzzz

*heard okasan giggling*

@_____@!!


HOIK!!! *jumps up frm bed & yell*

"妈！ 你没有做工啊？？"

Hehehe okasan's not working today, she wana follow pa go wandering in KL later.
I wanaaaaa go toooooo >.< Woke up with a bright sunlight is definitely awesome ^_^ Wanna give pinyin tutorial to pa about WunWun's name already. He alwys have pronunciation deficiency like he called Sean : Swan wahahahahahahaha Hong Zai : On Zai lol!!!! San Francisco : Shan Franksisko Cloe : Ke yi * Wana go late to opis today coz was so bosong yesterday need to stay until 10.30pm. B-b-bkoz i nid to check my senior's work???? Stupiak overweight pimp diddy chinaman boss!!!! Unfair salary to work responsibility ratio!!!! After Cny i'll ask for an 800 increment. Take it or leave it. Woot woot. Gotta prep up. Today will be at Jeffrey's site again. Ja!

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Posted at 9:00 AM

Today is er yi zhang's bday. His big 70th. He invited relatives and closest friends and employees to the dinner at V Garden.

So hungry and sleepy maybe i can type without comma full stop or paragraph lol

They were cutting cake and singing birthday songs after he gave some appreciation and gratitute message.

I love the best one was when he thanked di yi for being his wife. For being his pillar of strength and supports him from an empty grocer to now a multi-millionaire. He said "i couldn't be workin outside if my wife were to mogok henti kerja from the inside right?"
Then ah hong ko said "chim na chim na" lol muacks

Otsn, ah tho jie told me keat cried when they asked about erm.. Her. For a guy to cry in front of many others like that... I couldnt decipher but- i bet his pillow must be wet every night.
How can one break off from one end and join to the other end immediately? =_=
It took me four years to.... forgive my own decision. Hasty decision. zzzz

Feeling lazy to blog again... Haihzz the sidebar date cant roll on til the day i can show my grandchildren i think duohohoho Updating twitter is easier. Today's da first time we viber na ^_^

Ja!

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Posted at 3:40 AM