Stumbled upon my old blog which I vowed to keep but failed.
Which was almost forgotten.
I wrote one entry on March 1st, 2009 with the next entry, December 25th, 2009.
Since 2008, it's been 3 years.

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Sometimes I wonder how I pull through these years.

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As I read through I realize there were many things already wiped off my memory box.
Life details that I cherished were so vague, mom, dad, school, work, girlfriends, relationships,.... and myself the past years.
I really hope to remember them all.
I can't seem to and I feel sad about it ....

Living such fast-paced life now, occasionally I paused and look back a little,
I don't remember much, be it just something happened last 3 months.
Let alone last last year.
Why?
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When I don't remember much,
be it happiness and sadness,
gain and losses,
love and betrayal...
joy and despair..
It leaves me feeling voided inside.

I think I should see the doctor for some omega oil.
Need to upgrade my memory space.
=___= sigh.

This is one of those nights where I am drop dead tired
and bored to death,
but not wanting to tug into bed.
Hopelessly sleep-deprived.