Last night, went to pre-cny clothes shopping with pa & ma again. Perhaps it's the funniest time of the year.. It feels precious, could it be because that's the only time of the year i actually bring them shopping? @.@ wakao couldnt be.. Maybe because cny is the festive season for family together.. I hope many years to come it'll always be like this.
I've been living like a zombie for the past week. Havent recover fully from sick yet had to go to site is the most horrible nightmare i can think of atm. And also because all the while i've been restless about agape. ID feels like an idiot job that works extra hard for a little money. Kept tellin it's not what i want to do, it's not what i want to do but that's the place i have most confidence with, that's the place i know i can do it good. I guess until i can finallyyyyy declare i dont want to do it, else i need to find an equilibrium to stay with the job with a motivated heart at the same time make myself getting more & more familiar with agape. I guess fear of agape is simply because i am not familiar with it. And also because i'm lazy. Laziness has taken its toll on me seriously. Where is the me that i used to? Le sigh.. I guess until i plan for how i want to go about, if not i'll stay restless worryin abt simple things. Planninggggggggggggggggggggg pls.
Today anata had been away for a week. 59weeks to go~~ he had been settling down fine and learning nihongo at the fast lane lol the heart of missing feels as though an anchor is pulling your heart down.. Or soaked in a cup of vinegar.. Sometimes whole day long +_+ Used to think it's sad but now i think it's fine... It means care.. Missing someone means you care ok momo.. When you don't miss already barulah sad.. *self console mode*
Wakao na why i still dont feel sleepy at all??????
Why i forgot teh tarik is insomniac??????
Heruchan lai count sheep wit me +_____+
2012 resolution!!
1. I wana save 50k this year.
2. I wana be an independent sales designer >:l
3. I wana achieve something in agape.
4. Doing sales coz wana train my low EQ. Must learn how to deal with difficult clients with a smile and optimism *type also feels sipek hard lol* that means seeing client call at 9pm and say "wah!! Sugoii!! Lai answer" =.=
5. I must perservere on. I must. I must. I will. I will not give up.
Focus on the solution, not the problem. Sian, if you expect everythings gonna be easy, you are not learning and moving forward. Then what's the difference with being a promoter forever?
6. I will control my temper. I will not get angered easily.
7. I wana go find anata in nihon.
8. I wana hit sales and go to korea this year trip.
9. I must take care of health. Exercise everyday!! Must!!
10. I wana learn cooking & baking..
11. It clashes with #1 but somehow hope to take dancing classes. Hope kkkl faster graduate and beg her to take belly dance class with me lol
12. Hope to keep wunwun coz pa & ma say it everyday asking me to put him at bakuteh stall ToT
WHY AM I NOT SLEEPY YET??!!!!!!
Resolutions are never written for fun unless a good for nothing drunk.
Hope i'll be able to achieve one by one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lastly, hope i'll fall asleep before 3 tonight +.+
