Lying on the bed, closed my eyes and flash back, i feel weird. Life seems fast and slow. It always feels like it was only yesterday I went to watch movie with him, but the fact is it was already a month ago. Haha ^_^ll how do i define this weird feeling, i don't know.
Maybe because things between us are going at peaceful pace; due to distance, with routine calls and texts, while life here is going at 180kmh on the fast lane. Discovering new things, meeting new people, learning new chapters, chasing dreams. It's exciting.
One part of me want certain things to be paused; one part of me want other things to be fastforward.
Learning to balance time for all the things that I want to do in a day. To work, to agape?, to social, to exercise, laundry, parents, kinzaloo, wunwun, to rest, to play, to learn cooking, to berhiao dancing, ..... how impossible. But it's okay. Do it alternately, do it biweekly, do it monthly, as long as i do, i won't feel as bad ~.~
Life at Hairyhau is ever changing. One minute I got promoted to do sales designer. One minute ipad comes. Another minute a new rendering laptop comes. I dono how to say it but i find the law of attraction is really awesome. I remember all the things that i have now, I used to wish for them. I was wondering how good it is if I can work outside without being tied to office hour, finding friends for lunch, meeting and learning how to deal with different people, and now what i want is before my nose. I was wondering if I wanna get a pc to do freelance, suddenly a rendering laptop will be coming. Imagine I can draw at home T____T sugoii na~ since small, i always felt i have a guardian watching me from above. *facepalm*
I remember last time I told ma, if anyone has special eyes, they'll see a halo ring on above me.
Ma : WHY.
Me : Dongnooo... I just feel I'm special like that.
: Believe : Really love this word. "All things are possible to those who believe" -by forgot-who
Wanna make this my life pioneer motivation :D
Start with believing.
I believe I will wake up at 6.30 later.
(close mouth laughing)
~.~
Labels: Life . amusing . amazing, M o r u, ME
