the Jean book

grow up pls

2012-01-18T03:10:00.000+08:00

Been a long while since I online using lappie.. Ipad is awesome but sometimes i need to scrolllllllllllll too u knowwwww hehehe (sowee ipad >P)

time now: hr0209

sound of clock ticking & fan bruuuuuu-ing, stupiak air cond i think it needs maintenance edi 0.0; sound of thunder from a distance

feeling: like a boss

these few days been so energetic it feels so awesome

do i really need to depend on caffeine gosh -.-

cny is just next monday; this year is the first time i bought a new bed sheet

ma said the bolster sheet is whole white karer i dong belip i kena tipu by the packagin wakao lol

sometimes reading people's updates can be annoying

i dono why i find it funny when people just couldnt stop complaining,

couldnt stop scolding craps

drama about petty stuffs

blaming this and that

like everyday mia.. everyday also got things to scold mia..

some people i find it worse; couldn't stop talking about negativities

halo, pms 30days a month ka?

everyday obviously there are new shits from money work life love raisins iphone cats motorbikes lizard black color with no tail

unless you're retarded else we are all grown ups, we find solutions to problems, we make decisions and mistakes and learn from them. the time you spent complaining about it could be sufficient for you to work it out. i mean it's okay to whine and share problems, sometimes there're some heartaches, loss, misfortunes but why some people just couldn't stop complaining and blaming the sky the dog the sunflower

ok i don't know how to say it i just plain behsong to read sien stuff from the same sien people emoing everyday for no apparent reason. super attention seeker wakao

raining now~

love it the most when it rains after midnight :D

finally can upload own pictures :D

Day 7 and Resolution

2012-01-16T02:49:00.000+08:00

Konbanwa i mean ohaiyo =_______= it's 1:51am on a monday morning and i've been flipping on bed almost an hour yet cant seem to sleep at all. Wakao~ next time no matter what must not teh tarik again. I swearrrrr!!

Last night, went to pre-cny clothes shopping with pa & ma again. Perhaps it's the funniest time of the year.. It feels precious, could it be because that's the only time of the year i actually bring them shopping? @.@ wakao couldnt be.. Maybe because cny is the festive season for family together.. I hope many years to come it'll always be like this.

I've been living like a zombie for the past week. Havent recover fully from sick yet had to go to site is the most horrible nightmare i can think of atm. And also because all the while i've been restless about agape. ID feels like an idiot job that works extra hard for a little money. Kept tellin it's not what i want to do, it's not what i want to do but that's the place i have most confidence with, that's the place i know i can do it good. I guess until i can finallyyyyy declare i dont want to do it, else i need to find an equilibrium to stay with the job with a motivated heart at the same time make myself getting more & more familiar with agape. I guess fear of agape is simply because i am not familiar with it. And also because i'm lazy. Laziness has taken its toll on me seriously. Where is the me that i used to? Le sigh.. I guess until i plan for how i want to go about, if not i'll stay restless worryin abt simple things. Planninggggggggggggggggggggg pls.

Today anata had been away for a week. 59weeks to go~~ he had been settling down fine and learning nihongo at the fast lane lol the heart of missing feels as though an anchor is pulling your heart down.. Or soaked in a cup of vinegar.. Sometimes whole day long +_+ Used to think it's sad but now i think it's fine... It means care.. Missing someone means you care ok momo.. When you don't miss already barulah sad.. *self console mode*

Wakao na why i still dont feel sleepy at all??????
Why i forgot teh tarik is insomniac??????
Heruchan lai count sheep wit me +_____+

2012 resolution!!
1. I wana save 50k this year.
2. I wana be an independent sales designer >:l
3. I wana achieve something in agape.
4. Doing sales coz wana train my low EQ. Must learn how to deal with difficult clients with a smile and optimism *type also feels sipek hard lol* that means seeing client call at 9pm and say "wah!! Sugoii!! Lai answer" =.=
5. I must perservere on. I must. I must. I will. I will not give up.
Focus on the solution, not the problem. Sian, if you expect everythings gonna be easy, you are not learning and moving forward. Then what's the difference with being a promoter forever?
6. I will control my temper. I will not get angered easily.
7. I wana go find anata in nihon.
8. I wana hit sales and go to korea this year trip.
9. I must take care of health. Exercise everyday!! Must!!
10. I wana learn cooking & baking..
11. It clashes with #1 but somehow hope to take dancing classes. Hope kkkl faster graduate and beg her to take belly dance class with me lol
12. Hope to keep wunwun coz pa & ma say it everyday asking me to put him at bakuteh stall ToT

WHY AM I NOT SLEEPY YET??!!!!!!
Resolutions are never written for fun unless a good for nothing drunk.
Hope i'll be able to achieve one by one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lastly, hope i'll fall asleep before 3 tonight +.+

Day 2

2012-01-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

Rainy day today... Luckily today neednt go out. Done pretty much things although still feeling very weak.. Shit~ when can i fully recover? I cannot stand living like a corpse.

Havent talked to anata since yesterday noon... Couldn't stop thinking about him.. Not used to not talking to him this long.. Pluppykun muz be missing him too..

Hope all things settled down smoothly there~
Been a while since i said "it's showdry time"

>_<

January 10th : day 1

2012-01-10T08:13:00.000+08:00

It's 0758 now. Tuesday. Cant sleep since 5.. Been wondering he must be sleep sitting stiffly in the plane now. Later he gona krak krakkk kraakkk his bones again. Did he feel cold? Is he over Nihon skyline already? Is he hungry? T______T

Usually by this hour, his bell would ring for assembly.

Was feeling so unwell yesterday, never had those type of headache before i thought doc must hab given me wrong med & i'm gonna die young & buried in sardin =.= sudden hunger was so uncomfortable it's like twisting your intestines in. Why i have to fall ill on those last few days?

His flight is scheduled to reach Kansai at 0840. MAYBE HE ALREADY REACHIE NA!!!!!
Osaka time is one hour ahead!!!!! Wakao na wakao na Heru-chan... Hope everything goes smoothly there. It's winter now, please keep yourself warm..

Today Pa will be delivering to Genting. Hope the lorry will be ok. Bobi bobi.

Later i'll need to go to site again. Falling sick and goin to site again.. Need to focus back on life. Recently been off track a lot.

bon voyage

2012-01-06T11:28:00.000+08:00

Woke up today from an irritating dream by a phonecall. Unable to continue sleeping.
First thing that cross my mind is, today's friday already.
Right now, my heart feels as though it's being soaked in vinegar. Cant help the stupid tears.
Maybe falling sick made you feel vulnerable but everytime i imagine him gonna be so far away, i-

Hope he'll be safe there...
Hope he'll have the best times of his life in his fav country..

One year to me is really long... I hope both of us wouldnt change..
I don't know what future may bring but i hope we wouldnt change...
Because when we do not change, no matter how hard the situation might be, we'll find ways to stay together..

T_____________T

Autobot

2011-12-08T09:09:00.000+08:00

Ohyoshyosh!!
sound of watertank bishibashing under roof and some motor running behind the street.
Feeling: neutral
Stomach: bloated filled wit water wana uwek edi

Sho kol on air cond whole night wake up the next day u'll find an iced corpse wrapped in multiple blankets with a teddy bear. Who asked you to put controller in wardrobe wakao hohoho

It's December again. It's time to reflect on what that had been done for the whole year and plan for the next year. Haik!! 2012 resolution kambing soon :D
I will start Agape liaoooooo *cross heart* dato's so right. If u cant change ur mind, u cant change a thing. If u're going to be in the comfort zone forever, u'll be in the same spot forever. *semangat gilang gemilang* Hope i wont be doing full time ID soon. The other day was first day av yet have to go to site til afternoon T____T felt like collapsing. Luckily Mikiao said gonna hiring a site supervisor soon. Hang in here momo. All hardships will pass :)

The other day BP came down to klang right after his car jz back frm workshop @.@, i brought him to Chow Kit bkt coz u tell me where to hab bkt at 9.30pm =__= then we went to i-city kaosai i dislike that place =_= chatted abt work, gathering, collegemates, more work, where to travel next year (wahooo!!!) and relationships (ok~~) nani doko dare nande. I wonder......what will turn out to be like if it were to happened 6 months earlier. Why is it everytime when i've moved on things came running back.... When the feelings have moved on, i wont look back.

**
I haven't been really aniticpating for christmas since 08. I used to hope it to pass as fast as it could because i couldnt stand festive season with bitter memories but this year i'm really looking forward to collect all the kurismasu trees yeahoo!! I hope to remember all the details... I - i- hope next year i can celebrate xmas in nihon na!! Wakao heart skip a beat gonna faint. Have to print out and stick everywhere as law of attraction already nyahahaha

Wakao 9am dokodarenandenaniiiii hehe gonna be late as always momo-chan :)

leave attempt (again)

2011-12-01T08:16:00.002+08:00

Ohaiyo!

Woke up before alarm is very rare in my history muahahaha (cept if goin on a trip or doesnt need to work) LOL
This time it was also bkoz of stomachache. Wei auntie, why u haz a late? ToT
Been throwin tantrum again. Even showed a dark face to fat boss and ma said "employee how can like that!!??" lol

I cant control it!!!!!!!!!!!!
Harggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! *stabs fork into pillow and eats the cotton* o.O, heard atp4 haz come. Gotta take epo seriously liao~

*
yesterday (30.nov)
Was the first (and last holymama) time i got into a car accident.
YESSSSSSSS!!!!!! Princess Yuki is hurt!! *uwa* she's just a month old i feel so keksim.
I've been worse. There's a time i did the same while goin fast lane on highway.

I guess god just want me to learn a lesson T_____T
Thanks God I'm fine *self slap 360"

Yingying said it's lack of blood. Lavkofbloodlackofbloodlackofblood. Every tcm told me lackofblood but every tcm also has no improvement. Told ma she said it's her fault +.+ so she expect me to blame her? +.+

Cant take leave!!! Sien!! Ja!

The name's Wun4 Wun2

2011-11-30T09:00:00.000+08:00

"Wen Wen"
...
...
...
"Wen Wennnn"
...
...
...
"heeeikkk, Wen Wennn"

What-- nani-- doko-- dare-- nande with ottosan keep calling Wun Wun early in the morning =__=
*stares at clock; 8.15*

Haihzzzz

*heard okasan giggling*

@_____@!!

HOIK!!! *jumps up frm bed & yell*

"妈！你没有做工啊？？"

Hehehe okasan's not working today, she wana follow pa go wandering in KL later.
I wanaaaaa go toooooo >.

Happy 70th birthday to er yi zhang

2011-11-26T03:40:00.000+08:00

Today is er yi zhang's bday. His big 70th. He invited relatives and closest friends and employees to the dinner at V Garden.

So hungry and sleepy maybe i can type without comma full stop or paragraph lol

They were cutting cake and singing birthday songs after he gave some appreciation and gratitute message.

I love the best one was when he thanked di yi for being his wife. For being his pillar of strength and supports him from an empty grocer to now a multi-millionaire. He said "i couldn't be workin outside if my wife were to mogok henti kerja from the inside right?"
Then ah hong ko said "chim na chim na" lol muacks

Otsn, ah tho jie told me keat cried when they asked about erm.. Her. For a guy to cry in front of many others like that... I couldnt decipher but- i bet his pillow must be wet every night.
How can one break off from one end and join to the other end immediately? =_=
It took me four years to.... forgive my own decision. Hasty decision. zzzz

Feeling lazy to blog again... Haihzz the sidebar date cant roll on til the day i can show my grandchildren i think duohohoho Updating twitter is easier. Today's da first time we viber na ^_^

Ja!

colorful glass bottles

2011-11-26T01:27:00.001+08:00

"i cant promise to fix all your problems, but i can promise you won't have to face them alone"

*
Kyo has always been hiding his secret from the world, especially from Tohru. He's afraid of rejection because he never know anyone that acted kind towards him after they know about his monstrous true form when the bead is removed and his secret is revealed. Ugly and foul smelling creature cursed on the cat zodiac.
Little did he know Tohru knows about him from the first day they met. Tohru realized by coincidence.

Tohru's concern was only one.

Why hadn't she met Kyo earlier... so that he doesn't have to face those alone?

*

fear in a bottle

2011-11-18T02:13:00.000+08:00

Today, Wilson told me about a malay lady got snatch-robbed right in front of our office at 4 pm! 4 pm in the bright afternoon with all shoplots open and people to and fro. Cars to and fro. Birds to and fro. It was an indian on a motorbike snatching the lady who just got down from her car. I stoned after he told me. Thanks God the victim wasn't hurt. Imagine worse things could've happened. What if she was stucked within the handle? What if she was being dragged like the batu belah auntie what if he stabbed her before snatching what if all the villians just go rot in hell so they will not be hurting innocent people!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ruru also said his aunt fallen victim in eng ann T____T naniiiiii both are the places that i always go what the beep. I go to office everyydayyyyy!!!!

Pms will be too early so i don't know why i feel restless tonight.

Mom always love to walk alone I swear i'm going to hyperbole the story to scare her abit >:l
Dad also goes joggin in the morning but if i tell him, he's goin to smirk it off saying he's bruce lee's student =__=

*
Guess i couldn't forget that night. The moment so near to death, so helplessly scary i feel like screaming now when i thought about it. I hope it wont happen to me again, it wont happen to anybody for fuck sake. Thanks god i'm still living today. Thanks god i was saved at the last minute. Thanks god for sparing me a life *cries*

I really hope i can emigrate elsewhere someday. This place is filling in with even more junk people lead by pig heads with money faces. I don't want my children to face the same fear like i do. I freaking hate to think anyone has to go through the same trauma, some are worse!!!!! Just because all our taxes go to feed pigs in their lavished sty!!!

*

perplexed

2011-11-16T01:26:00.000+08:00

I see homeless old folks everywhere... When i visited homes, there're people who yearn for children to be by their sides when they're old & frail, people who yearn for a loving family, people who yearn for someone to love and be loved.

Sometimes i'll lose my mind thinkin how unappreciative she can get.

The only person who can make me completely lose my mind and make life changing decisions is her.

I stayed because of her.
I tried a lil harder because of her.
I suppress my dreams because her.

Or maybe, i used to.

I wonder..... maybe if I'm gone, would she start to realize all the things she's got when I'm here.

Feelings

2011-11-12T01:18:00.000+08:00

There's this feeling of security when i'm with him... Where i can let my guards down and just be myself... I don't know why but i know i can trust him.. He's never let u down..

I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwwww maybe i need to find a doctor to help me analyze lol

Feelings are complicated. But i know feelings are also the simplest way to tell what's on your mind.

Feels like a beautiful sunny day by the beach ^_^

11.11.11

2011-11-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

Konbanwa!!
Gosh finally i manage to type using mobile template! I've been wanting to resume blogging since i've got the ipadpad but i cant seem to type in the compose body neh. (whoosh whoosh finally)

Just thought that today is a really special date 11.11.11!! It only happen once in my this life na. I ought to be doing something interesting & memorable like robbing the bank but i ended up caged inside exhibition for dah whole day ToT there thrashed my the-day-of-the-century >:l

*
What is the sound i heard from outside na??!!!* gosh ToT
Super alert*

*

11.11.11

2011-11-11T23:41:00.001+08:00

everyone needs a Honda Tohru

2011-06-19T03:38:00.003+08:00

Stumbled upon my old blog which I vowed to keep but failed.
Which was almost forgotten.
I wrote one entry on March 1st, 2009 with the next entry, December 25th, 2009.
Since 2008, it's been 3 years.

*
Sometimes I wonder how I pull through these years.

*
As I read through I realize there were many things already wiped off my memory box.
Life details that I cherished were so vague, mom, dad, school, work, girlfriends, relationships,.... and myself the past years.
I really hope to remember them all.
I can't seem to and I feel sad about it ....

Living such fast-paced life now, occasionally I paused and look back a little,
I don't remember much, be it just something happened last 3 months.
Let alone last last year.
Why?
*
When I don't remember much,
be it happiness and sadness,
gain and losses,
love and betrayal...
joy and despair..
It leaves me feeling voided inside.

I think I should see the doctor for some omega oil.
Need to upgrade my memory space.
=___= sigh.

This is one of those nights where I am drop dead tired
and bored to death,
but not wanting to tug into bed.
Hopelessly sleep-deprived.

Love Actually

2011-04-18T00:53:00.001+08:00

He whom I'd love; must have a kind heart, for which without, will render him a frog no matter how highly and good looking he might be. He possess a heart that easily forgives, capable of empathy as well as sympathy.

He whom I'd love; is a serious worker all at the same time a funny joker. He is one with dedication for his work and he demands perfection. He is someone with such confidence but nothing close to arrogance.

He has a hobby that he's skillful and passionate about so much that he can story me about them in those sparkling eyes like an eagle caught sight of a mice.

He whom I'd love;is an enthusiast in life. He perceives life as a sunshine with occasional raindrops, rather than gloomy skies with thunderstorms and rough seas. He is a strong ground that I would rely upon in times of need. He is an optimists that would assure me everything's going to be fine.

He whom I'd love; is someone who would respect and accept me for who I am. We would confide in each other for the betterment of our love, instead of throwing blames and accusations. He is someone calm and collected, because I'm always straying loose and loud with temper. He is a guarantee that I would be able to feel when I look him in the eyes, that no matter how the world might be morphing into, he will be there for me. He will back up my weak shoulder and hold me through the darkest night.

He whom I'd love; is someone who would appreciate my love. He is someone whom I would feel worthy to give him my all, and he is there to appreciate them all.

He whom I'd love; is someone who is humble in his mannerism. He will not try too hard to please, and is not boastful of his achievements.

He whom I'd love; is someone who would love me and me unconditionally.

Listverse

2011-04-10T20:26:00.004+08:00

I 'follow' Listverse in Facebook.
This is by far the list that I like the most : Top 10 Lost & Found Wallet
It is nostalgic. I especially love this kind of old things; like birth certs,
or kiddie club membership card 15 years ago etc :)

Unlike many other lists that left me feeling eerily scary : 10 Horrifying Premature Burial
God this is really scary >.<
or : 10 Notorious Cases of Bystander Effect
This list will leave your jaws dropped about how cold human heart can be.

*

I've been wanting to watch the movie 'Once'.
It never comes to Malaysia in 2006, did it?
The soundtracks are awesome.
Take this sinking boat and point it home, we've still got time~~~

Song for someone

2011-04-10T02:24:00.004+08:00

Searching all around but find none
I am trying to sleep tonight
The night is cold
The night is cold
Oh you, I wish to hold

I try to run
I try to hide
Pardon me for being me
Letting my bruises to cover my fear
The rain was heavy I see nothing
I was only seeing the back of your head
Oh you, I wish to tell;

That I still love you,
And I still want to,
I don't want the car to stop
I don't want to talk
I just want to go back
Back to where we'd belong

I love you
I want to
undo my childish fear
to the day when I first caught your eyes
smiling so bright
I don't want it ends
I don't want it frails
Darling I never want to hurt you

Sitting all by myself
The soft breeze brought your face
For a moment I thought I can feel you again
The day is long
The day is long
Oh you, I wish to come back

Pardon me for being me
Letting my bruises to cover my fear
The rain was heavy I see nothing
I was only seeing the back of your head

I remembered you were wearing that hat.

Just :)

2011-04-05T21:44:00.004+08:00

"A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke.
All laughed like crazy. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time.
He cracked the same joke again & again, when there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said,

"When u can't laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again."

*
Got this from my ex-colleague's fb status.

*

On the side note, we went grocery shopping again.
I don't know why my mischievous dad is so funny sometimes.

These are the moments that I truly appreciate.

Without them, I am a nobody.

how's life?

2011-03-30T20:32:00.001+08:00

Little wanderer

2011-03-29T22:53:00.003+08:00

*
Everyone dreams.
Realistically they become aims we will achieve.
We all have a picture we chase at the end of the rainbow.
That's what keeps us going.
No one lives believing in the end, it'll be all but a blank paper.
No one bear to live like that.

*
Nothing feels worse than to not knowing what we actually want.
Who we are and where we want to be.

*

What about someone who completely knows what they want to do,
in this brief transition time alive,
yet being tied up in a cage of commitment?
Because commitment is the only place where you know you belong.
No one bear to live losing it either.
Because we commit only if we love.

*
I once dreamt to be a wanderer.
To places that I can now only see through my 4x4 window.
To see the stage of the world adorned in different colors, sounds and experience.
Taking that train across meadows and rivers.
In between the valley, there is a green lake and a rushing waterfall.
Skyscrappers, desserts, mountains and sea.

It is still something I want to do now.
Torn between reality and dream.

2011-03-07T21:45:00.004+08:00

怕梦想飞走

an update

2011-02-15T17:46:00.004+08:00

Havent been blogging for n-days.
Nowadays I write, sketch, print out photos in my sketch book
which is also my diary.
All the tiny details of life,
like which shirt my momma wore today (yes, I love to notice)
what were we talking over the dinner today,
what I did, places I've been, people I met,
how many days I didn't poop (yes, I'm a must-poop freak)
inner thoughts,
personal thing etc which is inappropriate or rather,
too personal for a public blog.

So what should I do with this lonely abandoned blog???
haizzz Sorry Ah Blog.
I remember I want to keep this blog running,
like how the date at the side bar rolled from few years back.
.couldn't help it.

my 2011 had a crazy beginning
so many things happened I thought I am an actress in my own TVB drama
kidnap my diary if u want to know
that is if you want to know.

This year, I'm 23.
Last 2 years back, we celebrated Eugene's 23rd at Look Out point,
I was wondering where will I be 2 years from then.

Shit. I hope the next time I update an entry,
it wouldn't be me writing..
This year, I'm 32...

Live life young, hey you.

flutter

2011-01-23T00:00:00.003+08:00

“不必去在乎什么天长地久。
只要曾经拥有已经足够了。

因为；
没有什么是永远不会改变的。”

-lyrics from here and there

Chameleon

2010-12-24T01:52:00.002+08:00

Everyone has another side of them that perhaps they don't know

*
I takes a heap effort for someone born with wild dnas
to suppress the wildness from creeping out
*
It has been tied down by a variety obstacles over the years
The lioness within has been put to sleep
*
What if it's awake now?

I think I'm going to die.

my name is nana

2010-10-18T08:05:00.003+08:00

Hello, my blog is so dead.
My fb is quite dead.
My twitter is - - -also dead.

I've been busy working.
Learning.

*
Yin is backed over the weekend but I din get to see her.
Sam is half the globe away,
I swear I'm standing on her feet now.
Jojo and Kylye had been disappearing,
(or I'm the one who disappear lol)
I miss you guys :(
*
Feeling emo momo these few days,
but pms is not the time now.
~.~

Gotta get ready for work.
Jannaa :)

routine

2010-09-30T22:14:00.004+08:00

- iamlikeatree -

I woke up
Off I go to work
I eat
I laugh
I do work
I laugh real hard nowadays
I hum to the night as I drive alone
Back home
Then I clean myself
Off I go to bed
I woke up
Off I go to work
I eat
I laugh
I - - -

*

click fast forward
or click rewind
it's the same

*
It's a routine..

My Routine.

small town girl

2010-09-28T22:04:00.003+08:00

There's a newer version I always hear over the radio...
I don't know who are they though.
I don't really like the high-pitched girl's voice.
*
Bah. These lyrics allow your mind to bring you back to those years
of high waist jeans and afro hairstyle.
the Madonna's years.
*
Don't Stop Believin' by Journey

Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere

Just a city boy
Born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smoky room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice just one more time

Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people
Living just to find emotion
Hiding somewhere in the night

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on
Streetlight people

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

给未来的自己

2010-09-19T13:48:00.003+08:00

The other day I came across a line of lyric : ......给未来的自己....
*

I remember in 2006, I've broken up with xyz =.=
I was so sad then (jahahahaha)
I wanted the sad times to pass faster..
I wonder after 3 years will I still love this guy that I'm crying to get over with
Then, I remember I wrote a letter to myself.

it was something like this:

To Su Sian in 2009,
How are you? This is Su Sian from 2006. Right this moment, I'm..... . . .. . . .
Where could you be at now?
Do you still remember this year.. . . . . .. etc etc etc

=_____=

KAKAKAKA
Tender naive years
It's funny and stupid, but I never regret those silly acts
They were a part of me while growing up
Sometimes I laughed so hard reading my past diary
Things that I would die for last time, I couldn't care less now
I wonder what was I thinking then
hehehe

But, I'll still wonder what will I be, say, after 3 years when I'll be 25,
or after 10 years OMG when I'll be 32!

I would wonder will I still remember myself from today
Things that I worry now, what will they turn out to be in the future...
hehe

*
The other day, my ex employer found her twist and tactics to not pay my 200bucks.
I knew she was lying, and 200bucks is not little to me.
I've done a lot more for them.
My one month gas money!
I was so angry, super angry, ultimate anger....
I wanted to this that this that
but--

I ended up telling myself it's not worth it.
I can earn my 200 back.
She's not worth to be the black dot in my memory lane.
I don't want her to be there though.

*
We can change.
Anger/temper/laziness/attitude
Shinjite kudasai! ^__^

Have a nice Sunday~!~!!

reverse psychology

2010-09-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

The other day I had conversation with a guy friend of mine
and our topic drifted to his relationship with his ex.

It got me realized something and left me bewildered I would say.

Human are multi-complex machines with emotion.
Aren't we?

Things that we do everyday,
people that we talk to everyday,
as long as there is another human interaction other than ourselves,
we need a psychological tactic to tackle our communication.

My bro once told me,
"If you love someone, set them free."
"Guys are like dogs. *wtf
If you want to tie them down, they'd long more for the outside world.
When they have the slightest chance to escape, you bet, they would.
However, if you let them go in and out as they like,
let them play around outside, in the park, behind the streets,
when the time comes,
they'll loyally come back home for dinner"

Those were what he said sometime ago.

I nodded, agreed.

*
Sometimes, I'd get fussed over the fact that,
why are simple things seem so complicated?
Why can't I just let him know how much I care for him,
and that I don't know what I'll do without him.

Because, it will only backfire.
This is how human minds behave like.

The more you care for them, the more they'll take it for granted.
*

I have many things going through my mind that day... I don't know how to arrange
them in easily understood sentences.
You might not know what the hell I'm talking about either.

*

I just know,
she used to love him whole-heartedly once,
and he took it for granted.
Little things that she hoped he would do,
he couldn't care less.

And now that she's gone,
he started to unconsciously do all the things he realized
it used to mean a lot to her.

Used to.

WongFuProductions (again)

2010-08-29T11:36:00.003+08:00

Another post about Wong Fu again ^_^
I just saw in Twitter that Ted proposed to the girlfriend at ISA concert!
Like Stone from Mayday, he proposed to his girlfriend during one of their Taipei concert.
Lolol romantician (did i subconsciously created this word?)

To my future boyfriend, you need a concert if you want to marry me
thankyouverymuch.

*
Some photos of Wong Fu for a Sunday morning ^~^

I like this one! Looks happy.

Ted (l), Wes(m) and Phil(r)

Never saw this one before though!

Wes and the FM shades.
(it looks like the shades that Far East Movement always wear)

and I saw this interview sometime ago,
shared it here today coz Ted is engaged.
haha is that a valid reason? ~.~

More Wong Fu Trivia

By Janice Jann

Can't get enough of the Wong Fu boys (men)? Here are some more fun questions that the boys (even Ted!) have graciously answered for APA.

We finished talking about work with Wong Fu and went straight into talking about relationships... the ones they have with each other. Living, working and touring together leads to certain roles that people may be known for. Here are some roles that Wes, Phil and Ted have inhabited in their partnership.

The Mother Hen: Ted awww
The Party animal: Phil. Though this is comparatively speaking. Phil says, "We don't go out at all. This is the one time we're going out this week for something."
Biggest Mouth: Phil. According to Wes, "[Phil] says more than the two of us combined." This led to Phil being reluctant to speak anymore but he quickly broke his vow of silence by answering the next question.
Biggest Slob: No one. Phil: "We're all really neat." Neat freaks are scary lol
Most Likely to use the Bathroom on Tour: Wes.
Ladies man: Ted. Wes and Phil: "Technically, 'cause he [is the only one of us that] has a girlfriend." So now we know Ted has a long time girlfriend, coz this interview was in 2007 (isn't my reason valid? :P)

Celeb crush:
P: Christine Taylor, Rachel McAdams,
W: I still don't know. I'll know when I see her.
T: Optimus Prime (he's so cute).

Music:
P: Maroon 5, Fabulous, Robin Thicke, I listen to everything.
W: Movie soundtracks.
T: Alternative, acoustics, classical

Worst Habit:
P: saying "and so..."
W: picking on Phil as he says "and so..." and worrying.
T: Forgetting to eat.

First website you check before everything:
P: Gmail. Then our website. Then Facebook.
W: Gmail. Then Facebook.
T: Gizmodo.com then Gmail

Favorite Chinese dish:
P: Fan chie chao dan, ma yee shang shu. what are these?
W: Whatever my dad cooks. wow, like mine
Ted: Sweet and Sour Pork

Sitcom you guys most resemble:
P: Will & Grace. Are we worthy to be The Office?

Best compliment/gift a fan has ever given you:
P: One girl folded me a box of 100 or so paper cranes. That was pretty nice.
W: Anything and everything is more than I could ever expect.
T: "Thank You" Ted's answers are always so cool o.O

Gadget you can't live without:
P: cell phone?
W: My camera
T: GPS (I'm terrible with directions)

Favorite season:
P: Definitely spring, but also autumn. Summer is great too. I like Winter a lot though. And all the other seasons suck.
W: Spring? I like them all for their own reasons.
T: Spring

One thing you hope to accomplish this summer:
P: Write a new screenplay for the next feature.
W: Figure out my life.
T: Find the answer to this question

Cartoon character you most resemble:
P: Yakko from animaniacs? I wish I could be Terry from Batman Beyond, he was awesome.
W: Any Asian kid in any anime. Haha.
T: Dexter from Dexter's Laboratory

Boys to Men: An Interview with Philip Wang, Wesley Chan and Ted Fu of Wong Fu Productions

Thanks for reading.
I'm San San, the supporting role behind Wong Fu Productions.
*frowns*

teehee

spring

2010-08-27T13:28:00.003+08:00

Cl!ck

Heh. Today is a Selangor public holiday.
Early morning, I drove mom back to Port Klang to eat there.
and here I would go again..
"Everything changes so much~!" sighhh

There was a row of old shops where I used to cross the road over
to buy a newspaper for dad.
Early morning sometime when I was 10.

*tugging heart strings*

Then, I went to read James Khor's blog again.
Yesiknowi'mcrazy

He always mentioned life is unpwediktabow.
And then he's gone.
He- he- was a happy-go-lucky person.
He sulked for a lost relationship.
I seem like reading what I would write at his blog.
He- he- he was just like anyone of us.
*
Gosh! I couldn't help thinkin
today I'm here, tomorrow I could be gone forever.
Same to each and everyone I know.
They could have disappear forever the very next moment.

IcertifythatI'mcrazynowkthxbye

Life is a season
Like the temporary blossom during the short spring
So beautiful, so endearing
so... ... . -short.

I took a stroll at the park one evening
Flower petals were everywhere on the street
No one remembers which stem they came from
Neither how beautiful they used to don the world

Someday when I'm gone
will I be just a. . .. season
that will soon be forgotten

I hope I will be remembered for a reason.
like. . ... michael jackson?

*

2010-08-27T00:12:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we lose judgement and act before we think
But we don't do it always.
Coz we all have brain.

or do 'you'?

sometimes I really wanna say are you serious? just shuddup and things will be fine.
so.... shut the hell up. GOSH!

love what you do, do what you love.

2010-08-23T20:24:00.002+08:00

mood: spirited
listening to: piano playin by neighbor :)
.
quote for today : You don't drown because u fall in water, u drown because u refused 2 SWIM! don't you dare give up!!!!! - RevRunWisdom from Twitter

___________________________________

Today is my first day at work at the new company.
This is my third company ~.~ I really dislike changing new environment and having
need to blend my way into a new group of people.
(because I'm a social inadequate freak)
k.just.kiddin.but.seriously.
___________________________________

just a short update to remind myself in 30 years to come
today marked a new chapter of my life.

Wish you a nice day too!
^__^

i have a brother

2010-08-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

CL!ck
Feel free to click on the link above for my brother's papercraft blog.

*
Yeah~ not many know I have a brother though
not aya godbrother adopted during high school
he shares half of my blood and same surname :)

It's been so many years til only recently we keep in touch frequently again
Too many things happened in between
I was small then, but now that I've grown up, I get to see things my way.
(eih, what am I talking about?)
*

He makes papercraft for living
He has been on newspaper for the 6th times already!
The latest was last week on Nan Yang's news.

*
He's also been such an inspiration to me.
*i'm easily inspired lol*

:) see ya.

Kentile Header is lost

2010-08-22T01:12:00.003+08:00

lol this is funny!

suddenly, my Kentile Floors header was gone.
zzzzzzzssssss I has not has a pms!!!!
Even if I'll forget about the time of the month, the super mood swing/impatience/
potential-abrupt-eruption will always remind me.

:/ sucks being me.

Funny list

2010-08-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

Ah gosh! Guess I'm too tired, coz I couldn't stop laughing!
Controlled laughing. Coz the parents are already sleeping!

Enjoy~

33 Funny Exam Answers
source : Listverse.com

We have had a lot of very serious lists on the site lately so I am posting a totally silly list. I can not vouch for whether these are authentic answers to the English GCSE exam, but regardless, they are funny.

1. Ancient Egypt was inhabited by mummies and they all wrote in hydraulics.They lived in the Sarah Dessert and traveled by Camelot. The climate of the Sarah is such that the inhabitants have to live elsewhere.

2. The Bible is full of interesting caricatures. In the first book of the Bible,Guinessis, Adam and Eve were created from an apple tree. One of their children,Cain, asked, “Am I my brother’s son?”

3. Moses led the Hebrew slaves to the Red Sea, where they made unleavened bread

which is bread made without any ingredients. Moses went up on Mount Cyanide to get the ten commandments. He died before he ever reached Canada.

4. Solomom had three hundred wives and seven hundred porcupines.

5. The Greeks were a highly sculptured people, and without them we wouldn’t have history. The Greeks also had myths. A myth is a female moth.

6. Actually, Homer was not written by Homer but by another man of that name.

7. Socrates was a famous Greek teacher who went around giving people advice. They killed him. Socrates died from an overdose of wedlock. After his death, his career suffered a dramatic decline.

8. In the Olympic games, Greeks ran races, jumped, hurled the biscuits, and threw the java.

9. Eventually, the Romans conquered the Greeks. History calls people Romans because they never stayed in one place for very long.

10. Julius Caesar extinguished himself on the battlefields of Gaul. The Ides of March murdered him because they thought he was going to be made king. Dying, he gasped out: “Tee hee, Brutus.”

11. Nero was a cruel tyranny who would torture his subjects by playing the fiddle to them.

12. Joan of Arc was burnt to a steak and was cannonized by Bernard Shaw. Finally Magna Carta provided that no man should be hanged twice for the same offense.

13. In midevil times most people were alliterate. The greatest writer of the futile ages was Chaucer, who wrote many poems and verses and also wrote literature.

14. Another story was William Tell, who shot an arrow through an apple while standing on his son’s head.

15. Queen Elizabeth was the “Virgin Queen.” As a queen she was a success. When she exposed herself before her troops they all shouted “hurrah.”

16. It was an age of great inventions and discoveries. Gutenberg invented removable type and the Bible. Another important invention was the circulation of blood. Sir Walter Raleigh is a historical figure because he invented cigarettes and started smoking. And Sir Francis Drake circumcised the world with a 100 foot clipper.

17. The greatest writer of the Renaissance was William Shakespeare. He was born in the year 1564, supposedly on his birthday. He never made much money and is famous only because of his plays. He wrote tragedies,comedies, and hysterectomies, all in Islamic pentameter. Romeo and Juliet are an example of a heroic couplet. Romeo’s last wish was to be laid by Juliet.

18. Writing at the same time as Shakespeare was Miguel Cervantes. He wrote Donkey Hote. The next great author was John Milton. Milton wrote Paradise Lost. Then his wife died and he wrote Paradise Regained.

19. During the Renaissance America began. Christopher Columbus was a great navigator who discovered America while cursing about the Atlantic. His ships were called the Nina, the Pinta, and the Santa Fe.

20. Later, the Pilgrims crossed the ocean, and this was called Pilgrim’s Progress. The winter of 1620 was a hard one for the settlers. Many people died and many babies were born. Captain John Smith was responsible for all this.

21. One of the causes of the Revolutionary War was the English put tacks in their tea. Also, the colonists would send their parcels through the post without stamps. Finally the colonists won the War and no longer had to pay for taxis. Delegates from the original 13 states formed the Contented Congress. Thomas Jefferson, a Virgin, and Benjamin Franklin were two singers of the Declaration of Independence. Franklin discovered electricity by rubbing two cats backwards and declared, “A horse divided against itself cannot stand.”. Franklin died in 1790 and is still dead.

22. Soon the Constitution of the United States was adopted to secure domestic hostility. Under the constitution the people enjoyed the right to keep bare arms.

23. Abraham Lincoln became America’s greatest Precedent. Lincoln’s mother died in infancy, and he was born in a log cabin which he built with his own hands. Abraham Lincoln freed the slaves by signing the Emasculation Proclamation. On the night of April 14, 1865, Lincoln went to the theater and got shot in his seat by one of the actors in a moving picture show. The believed assinator was John Wilkes Booth, a supposedly insane actor. This ruined Booth’s career.

24. Meanwhile in Europe, the enlightenment was a reasonable time. Voltaire invented electricity and also wrote a book called Candy.

25. Gravity was invented by Issac Walton. It is chiefly noticeable in the autumn when the apples are falling off the trees.

26. Johann Bach wrote a great many musical compositions and had a large number of children. In between he practiced on an old spinster which he kept up in his attic. Bach died from 1750 to the present. Bach was the most famous composer in the world and so was Handel. Handel was half German half Italian and half English. He was very large.

27. Beethoven wrote music even though he was deaf. He was so deaf he wrote loud music. He took long walks in the forest even when everyone was calling for him. Beethoven expired in 1827 and later died for this.

28. The French Revolution was accomplished before it happened and catapulted into Napoleon. Napoleon wanted an heir to inherit his power, but since Josephine was a baroness, she couldn’t have any children.

29. The sun never set on the British Empire because the British Empire is In the East and the sun sets in the West.

30. Queen Victoria was the longest queen. She sat on a thorn for 63 years. She was a moral woman who practiced virtue. Her death was the final event which ended her reign.

31. The nineteenth century was a time of a great many thoughts and inventions. People stopped reproducing by hand and started reproducing by machine. The invention of the steamboat caused a network of river to spring up. Cyrus McCormick invented the McCormick raper, which did the work of a hundred men.

32. Louis Pasteur discovered a cure for rabbis. Charles Darwin was a naturalist who wrote the Organ of the Species. Madman Curie discovered radio. And Karl Marx became one of the Marx brothers.

33. The First World War, caused by the assignation of the Arch-Duck by an anahist, ushered in a new error in the anals of human history.

****
maaaayyyyyybe being a teacher to a bunch of spoilt brats isn't so bad
;) TEE HEE, Brutus!

Wong Funny

2010-08-18T03:10:00.001+08:00

Gotta love this!

突然好想你

2010-08-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

最怕回忆突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
-mayday

Life has so many possibilities
as well as impossibilities

no point wondering.
What will be, will be,
and there is a reason why some people did not make it into our future.
because... . . they were not meant to be.

obsession

2010-08-14T21:36:00.004+08:00

love this art deco-ish poster
a little of American Superheroes Comic style? maybe the wording.

*
Obsession is dangerous.
It is like people who are so into something
video games/anime/celebrities/collections/drugs/anything possible!
they'd literally live in their obsessionism?.

Like an infusion of virus into your braincells
and take control over your mind.

Be careful of what you're obsessed with.
It's often the one thing that makes you lose your mind.
or literally living in your own world.

:D

#1 : 复刻回忆 (engraved memories)

2010-08-12T13:11:00.005+08:00

给一个在遥远回忆里的朋友

你还好吗好久不见
又来这里这个老店
后来的你喜欢了谁
我们聊聊天

现在的你一样美丽
至于爱情是个回忆
她不爱我他离开妳
爱会来就会去

在不同的城市努力
偶尔也会想想你
这样的我那样的你
要很久才相聚

我们都没说那遥远的曾经
我们也没提那故事的原因
青春的复刻回忆像一片云
没法子抓在手里

我们的眼泪在复习着过去
我们的微笑是彼此的氧气
复刻的回忆是封挂号信
多远都可以找到你

窗外的树爱哭的风
烦恼的我聪明的你
爱是什么什么人懂
所以别难过

心还痛吗请忘了吧
所谓幸福是个童话
后来的我一切随意
所以没关系

午后的闷热的窗外的一场大雨
让我们看见了以前的自己
把时光倒转回那一季
那年的梦他乡的你
*

For a friend from a distant past

How do you do? It's been a while..
Here we are again in this old shop
Who had you fallen for after that?
Let's chat little~

You're still as beautiful
But as for the love , it's just a memory
She does not love me and he had left you
As how love will come, it will go too~

Both working hard in different cities
Occasionally I'll be thinking of you
As of both our situation now
It will need a long time for us to be together again

Both of us have not spoken of the distant past
Neither do we mention about the reason behind the story
Engraved memories of youth are like a piece clouds
We can't hold it in our hands

Our tears are dwelling the past
(the time when) our smiles were (still) each other's breath
The engraved memories are like registered letters
No matter how far, we still can find them

The tree outside the window loves the crying wind
The weary me while the witty you
For what love is, nobody knows
So don't be sad~

The sultry afternoon’s heavy rain outside the window
Made us saw ourselves from the past
Turn back the time to that season
That year's dream of being away from you

Khalil Fong & Fiona Sit
from Jackie Cheung's old song

Seeing people fall in and out of love
Is there an insurance...
against heartbreak
against lowliest moments
of all - against memories.

sentimental kind of emotional

2010-08-08T01:44:00.004+08:00

I love this!
It is like somewhere, sometime over 40years ago,
where people would come here and have their burgers,
the sound of Elvis's songs at the background,
I love 60s's United States of neon lights and polka dot dresses!

I was googling for interior finishes - tiled flooring, when I came across Kentile Flooring. It was founded in 1898 by Arthur Kennedy (no idea who, was he the president Kennedy?) but permanently closed down in 1994 after being sued for asbestos toxicity.

I stole the pic, saved in my pc and decided to use it as my header sometime after that.
It is too sentimental-kind-of-emotional!

Sometimes I realize I'm being a boring person, where I can look at one photograph for a long time.... I'm enticed by the details of everything captured inside. The older the photograph, the more attracted I will be. I can look at the cloth I wore back during 1990 and wonder, "wow, where could this cloth have gone...~"
Or looking at a stranger girl coincidentally captured in our photos and wonder "wow, who could this girl be? where is she by now? did she know she was captured inside my photo 10 years ago? she must have grown up like me by now..." etc etc...

Am I abnormal being this way? T___T
I have a very weird feelings toward old photographs.
Especially photographs of things that were once existed, but no longer are now.

anger-management

2010-08-06T02:43:00.004+08:00

definition of anger:
Anger is a type of disease when one feels the temperature of the surrounding raising,
breaths become shorter
rush of blood towards the head makes everything else disappear except anger itself
it looks super ugly.

symptoms of anger:
gritted teeth
pouting mouth
clenching fist
punching pillow
uncontrolled flow of verbal abuse
rapid breathing
farts accidentally
face turning red

outcome of anger:
crazy catfight
bull-like manfight
market verbal fight
self-hugging-and-rolling fight
face turning green and clothes getting ripped off as the size of torso increases.
transformed into the Hulk successfully.

risk of lack of anger management:
Out of new clothes to wear.

Measures recommended:
no remedy has been found yet. Perhaps is buy more stretchable clothes.

Well, Good Luck!

West-life

2010-08-01T12:43:00.001+08:00

A youngster's life :P
*admires***

in progress

2010-07-29T23:14:00.003+08:00

Click for the super nice color chart

I've spent the last 2 hours googling my new header. Kinda like this one though.

Even said so, the layout the alignment the color scheme are all still *ugh*
But my eyelids are putting on weight i bet they're having some buffet party up there.

Off to bed now :)

When life is work, and work is life.

2010-07-25T12:47:00.003+08:00

Hello again. It's Sunday morning again. Today's our Saman Chong's birthday WOOT to her in Singapore! Heard she raped her boyfriend last night eh? How inconsiderate of the roommate though! puahahaha *damn, how fun a student life can be right? totally envious by a boring working lady here* SIGH!

I just wanna talk about my current dilemma. Again? Yeah. Life is full of dilemmas isn't it? *sighs*

For the past 2 months, and especially recently, I've been working like a machine seriously.
A senior left without notice *oh-wow!* and left us inexperienced juniors juggling everything like mad.

It's a big project for a noob junior like me. It's a hospital now, and a new hospital coming. 2 bungalows coming. I cant even handle a bungalow well, now that I'm suppose to cope with hospital, I'm going crazy.

I worked from 9 to 6, Monday to Friday. Continue after work by bringing work home, usually till midnights. Continue too with Saturdays & Sundays. Conclusion is i worked 7 days a week, 15hours on weekdays.

I like my work. I enjoy working in the current company, but these overloading works are too much to take. What life do I have? I seriously don't know... It's so imbalanced between personal and work life. All works and no play makes Jean a dull cyborg. My friend said :"Even machine will get overheated and needs rest." True.

What should I do???

I was so stressed up sometimes i would cry *lol.. i'm so gay right* Because although I was out shopping to release a while, my mind would still drift back to my unfinished work. It will haunt me, thus, even while "releasing", I'm still "stressing".

What should I do???

I have a lot of learning opportunities here, but while needing to compromise my sanity and youth, I realized, it's not worthwhile. I don't want the money earned to be spent on psychiatric treatment later =.=

And even on Sunday like this, I'm having my office computer in front of me now (at home) trying to gather my oomph to start working again.

I'm so drained out. I..... i... need to escape. What should I do, girls? Advise me pls~~~! :)

Orient Express

2010-07-22T22:55:00.004+08:00

My Dream
this is my achievable dream.
My heart strings tugged the first time I read about Orient Express
in a magazine somewhere some 10years back.
It is an international train service from Paris to Vienna
(the route changes over time)
It will pass through many places along its journey.

I just love train.
It enables me to really feel the earth as the railway shook beneath its wheels.
To be able to see and feel what other people at the other side of this same world
go about their daily lives.. is a very very sentimental precious thing I am so fond of.

If I can't go nomad around the world
capturing every essence of lives in different perspective, time & places,
at least Orient Express fulfill some of my craving.

oh.great.finally.i.have.a.dream.to.chase.already:)

work work work.

2010-07-21T20:17:00.003+08:00

Found myself a new profile pic!
*
I've been meeting new people lately...
Supplier sales person,
new colleagues,
auntie at the hawker stall,
uncle at the yuk choi bo,
and.... new colleagues again.

But for a conclusion,
everyone says i look older than my age!!!!!!!!!!!!
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Oh.so.jialat.

I know I've been working like a cow.
Even cow has sleeping time, but I rarely do ok.
I know I havent seen a fruit in a long time. (i wish to eat fruits!)
I din drink plenty of water.
I din use qiu khap cosmetics and skin rejuvenate wat-wat products.

But that doesn't mean I need to look 3 years older my age
T______________T

*runsaway limplessly*

But seriously, stress is peaking,
sleep is reducing....

I need a break~ take me away~ :)
chiaoz for now..

Sunday afternoon

2010-06-27T16:03:00.006+08:00

Sunday afternoon. A hot one.
I've done something that I havent been doing for so long.
Hand wash laundry all-at-once! Those were around 20pieces of clothing =__=
you know, there are pieces which you cant just stuffed into the machine and press start :L
tee hee feels gooooood!

This was me 6 months ago.
Looked pale like a vampire who is too lazy to find a victim to suck their blood.
No photoshopping where i'd usually contrasted it abit so that it doesnt look so "foggy"
Chyeah lowyea digital camera.

And no make up coz I don't do much make up coz I don't like to go to places where I need to do so pretty much coz I'm always lazy to remove them later. =____=
I mean.. i was at home.

Wanted to learn some awesome eye make up though!!
I've watched in Taiwanese TV their girls put on 4 pairs of fake eyelashes in one shot!
Their look changes dramatically like from a pale looking aneroxic kiong xi to
a fairytale godmother's youngest daughter :o
What an ART!
(but my intention wasn't this though~.~)
Because everyone wants to look good. It just depends how far we would go to
have that confidence, arent we?

*
.

*

I wanted to write a bunch of things but--

many some other day.

x a morning person

2010-06-21T08:50:00.005+08:00

I'm not usually a morning person. I'm not comparing to those friends that sleep at 6am and rise by 5pm tho :P that is... that is... bat reincarnation :S I'm saying about normal waking hours in the morning :D

Monday mornings in the office is the worst ever I SWEAR! I can hold my fishing rod in front of the lady boss until lunch time. Then I would sacrifice my meal for an hour sleep in the attic. (yeah, our office has an attic up there) Only after the nap I'll be 'sorta' awake.

I'm eating Yam Rice tapau-ed from a chinese stall few blocks down. Sipping a hot steaming chinese tea, listening to $#^$%&$% Fly Fm (I really really hate Fly FM! They played the songs over over over and holy mother of God OVER again!!) *psychotic man, i can become psychotic coz my office played it 24/7*

Yeah, needless to say, today wasn't a very blue Monday =D

Is there a bookmark that can pause the time, of the most youthful days and beautiful year?

2010-06-08T23:02:00.004+08:00

This is 如烟-by Mayday. These are the most meaning and beautiful lyrics I've ever seen!
I keep asking myself "Are these really written by this young cocky looking singer, Ashin?"

I've heard of Mayday since high school, but wasn't really font of chinese songs back then.
Until 2007, I started to listen to theirs.

How do I depict them?

They're not boyband pls. They are live band where they make and write their own music.
Boyband is like Fahrenheit *oops*

I really really like them!
Theirs is the first concert that I would pay to watch.

Most of the lyrics was written by lead singer, Ashin. And it's the best thing to love about Mayday.
These chinese lyrics..... find no translation would do them justice.
Because chinese is the most beautiful language! trust me!

I'd definitely go for another show! It's way beyond worth. It's priceless!

Monday night solace

2010-06-07T22:28:00.002+08:00

Yin is still office now. I see her on msn. I like how we see each other in this abstract way although we're hundreds of miles apart.
Every morning (well, almost) Either she would greet me "Morning, po ah po" Or I would first.
Then, when she gets so bored with her job, or when my boss wasn't in office, we'd update each other what are we doing :D

Po ah po was derived from her telling me, she wanted to name herself Naomi Polaris Tan. (SERIOUSLY)

Do you know what's a polaris? Nvm that :)

*

I'm basically doing nothing now. Idling mood.

On my fb and msn, I saw that* guy whom I am fond of for... err.. 4 years *coughs* Usually I'd click into his conversation box (or fb profile) to stalk what's his most recent display picture (or what he's been up to in fb). I'm so egoistic, I wouldn't find him to chat unless he initiates. And usually, other than those crap-talking-and-laughing-non-stop with my girlfriends, seeing him online is one of the reason to even on the msn.

But now, I'm not sure about that anymore.

Usually, there'll be someone I'd look forward to at a time, be it mere fancy or really like. But now, I'm like a spaced out robot. I have not one subject of fondness at all. I- I- I- I've forgot what it's like to be in a relationship! o.0 is this a big deal? ok.no.or maybe.

They've been constantly and sarcastically reminding me "OI TAn Su Sian, already 22 this year arrr" (they're all in loooong commited relationship pfft :P)
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*pause*
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Sometimes I really can't help it.
You can't just ask me to see someone I'm not looking forward to right? T__T
No one can really interests me. Anymore.
Except Wesley Chan from WongFu production *i-m-serious-face*

That guy has got standard. And he's into photography. buahahahaha *day dreaming mode ons.*
byebye.

五月天!!

2010-06-06T22:49:00.017+08:00

I kept thinking about them. I hope I wont forget its details so I decided to write them down.
Coz if u ask me about Justin Lo's concert last 3 years, I can barely remember its awesome details already :(

Yester-night was a night that I'll be thinking about for the coming few days.
Mayday's concert was sucha... sucha.. blast!

They blasted for more than 3 hours! 2 encores! Arghhhh! I love! the part where Ashin was jumping along the song "离开地球表面" and "D.N.A."

The theme was Transform D.N.A. The opening was sorta like MotionMaster (maybe SoundMaster) where explosions seen inside the screen went along with fireworks explosion on the stage. And then the curtain dropped and there they were! *screammmmmmmeedddd*

Transform D.N.A uses Transformer concept (arrrrghhhhh!!). It has a 3 storey height robot on stage last night when the song DNA was playing! (~.~ I felt like fainting) I didn't take a picture of it!! coz ppl's DSLR has been confiscated. (yeah, one's not supposed to bring any recording material into a concert o.O) so I didn't dare. Plus if i were to busy snapping pictures and recording, I wouldn't have really enjoyed the show.

It was so awesome.

Another message of Transform D.N.A is that "决定自己的dna" That is, decide our own dream and fight for our own destiny.life. (dna=life)

It was so awesome.

It could've been more 'bestest' if they played 如烟 :(

I saw they played it in their Singapore gig. Too bad.
Guest appearance was Della 'Ding Dang'. (not sure about the name Della, though)

Bumped into kinda many Klang friends too. It was super awesommmmeeee.... I gotta learn more of their songs already. Hope Mayday will keep on making musics. And great inspiring lyrics!!!

Needless to say, I'm a super Mayfan:) coz this is the first time I'd bother to upload videos :D

temperament

2010-06-05T02:29:00.003+08:00

2.30am GMT+8
Sound of fan spinnin above and fluorescent lamp buzzin, dogs barkin in the distance.

It's late now. I wanted to sleep but I jz don't wanna get off the net yet. Miraculously, I don't have the same passion when I was rushing projects overnight. This is my temperament#1.

I'm not feeling so good now. Self-blame.
I realize I have a super big weakness with my temper. I'm born with it.
My mom is hot tempered esp with me.
My dad is hot tempered esp with outsiders.
My bro is hot tempered in jz about everything except the wife.
As for me? I'm hot tempered with those things that I'm particular about.

And when I got reeled up, I make hasty decisions which I'd find unnecessary later on.
I'm childish.

Hot tempered is not getting easily angered. It is more like losing ur mind. Another symbol of low EQ.
This, I'd hand down and admit defeat. I've been worse, way worse, but trust me, I've been learning to control.

About the sets of things that I'm particular about, sometimes, come to think of it, I realize, I shouldn't be so particular?
*
and my hasty decisions are always cut down to the bottom line of future contact. I like to do things this way. Why Jean? Idk.

When I really dislike someone, for example, I don't wish to see them again. I don't want to see their name pops up online in my msn, I don't want to have their numbers inside my cellphone, I'd hide them from my Facebook News feed.
Or when things got soured in between 2 parties, I wouldnt find a way to patch things up. Instead, I'd choose to "no need to see this person again" Because I don't believe in second chances. Things done the first time were already the proof of intention, decision, and . . . personality.

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[stares blankly into the screen]
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one thing for sure is, my EQ is minus the zero.
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on the other note, maybe this is another thing that I'm particular about: anti-Hypocrisy.
Maybe, I like myself this way.
Likewise, I'm not one who usually apologize. Coz I don't believe in second chances even for myself either.
temperament#2.
Maybe, I'm your best clue of what a perfectionist behave like. No second chance and everything needs to be done right the first time.
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I realize .. . .. .I'm wrong.
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Hips? Don't lie.

2010-06-01T10:31:00.004+08:00

Mlm is multi-level marketing.
I don't oppose to mlm, i hope to do if i can. When the time's right.

One thing about mlm that I loathe is the way their sales rep gave fake promises (and you're naive enough to believe them).

I spent over 500 bucks coz someone said it 100% guarantee works or else I wouldn't need to pay.
Oh man, I really hate this kind of lines. Why would I have fall for it.

Before I signed my membership, I asked again, first round is 500bucks, if it doesn't really work, how many rounds of 500bucks do i need? Someone said, "NO, NO, SURE WORK ONE"

Don't want to disgrace myself cursing words after words, but one thing that pisses me off is.. don't sms "this kind of sms" to me during my office hours. It's sucha turn off especially whenever I thought about your 100% guarantee.

p/s: They don't even know what they're eating yet they're talking as if the product is sent from heaven. WTF. I can explain even better. Go back to you Bio school idiots.

fun fair

2010-05-30T20:04:00.002+08:00

Had my dinner at BT just now. decided to stop awhile at

the "fun fair" in Giant.

it isn't really an amusement park coz it'll be just temporary there :S

I wanted to ride the ferris wheel so much!

but mom said she'll faint.

(i kept laughin coz it's just a slow moving rideeeeeeeeeee =.=)

I will drag the girls to go with me when they're back

from Singapore!

a lovely lovely place

i used to love to go when i was little

and i know i will always love to.

I got myself heavy bangs again

2010-05-29T19:58:00.009+08:00

I made a banner this morning.
It took me 10 minutes coz I cant really decide on Eugene's and doctor's photos =.=
Nice isnt it? ^^

Touches Bali
I feel it's too much of work to upload and reupload the same photos. (LOL)
So click the link to my facebook album "Touches Bali" if you're interested aight ;)

*
[travelling back in time]
Today, I accompanied mom to her saloon.

TADAA!

how vintage!!
it needs a song to make it perfect.
玫瑰玫瑰, 我爱你。。玫瑰玫瑰，真美丽。。。！

it's been a while since I last went back to Port Klang.
Everything just doesn't feel the same anymore.
When I was little, the street was so festive.
Chinese hawker stalls along both of the roadsides.
Now, they're all gone with the time. I feel sad.
Some 10 years back.

they tore down the building i wonder why.
I took this 2 years ago.
*
[new members]
I went to look for a nice photo album but cant find any.
Instead, i bought a sketch book (finally) and a new pencil bag.

first, black is the coolest thing.
second, it'll look less dirty after awhile ;)

*
[past time]
I need to sketch else my fingers is turning rusty soon.
I'm using artline pens still, 0.2, 0.4 and 0.6
Very kampung, Jean.
First, I cant afford a freaking expensive tablet.
(where they draw using a machine called computer)
second, i prefer the ancestor's way.
period.

aren't they so cute?
I adopted them from Bali. Gave one to my cousiez.
They don't understand mandarin yet.
*

一人旅

2010-05-26T22:30:00.007+08:00

心情有点低落
刚从旅行回来的心情每次都是这样的
明天又开始上班了

我不是不喜欢我的工作
我只是不喜欢目前的生活
不喜欢城市人匆忙的例行

某一天，我突然想回去两年我所做过的事情
回忆中，我都在忙
没有一个特别点
就像这样——————————————————————
那是两年

我的梦想就是到世界的每个角落去
感受他人的生活
见识他人的文化
。
停在每一个大城市和小镇留下我的脚印
。
我喜欢热闹但更热爱平静的精彩
想把世界拍在我的镜头下
想离开例行和平凡
的城市生活
。
目前这所有都只是个梦想而已。

amazed

2010-05-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

I cant believe I've been to a place like this.

It is a lake in between mountains near its tip.
I thought this should be how heaven looks like :)
*
I'm home finally.
We did have a safe trip thanks God.
What a superb memorable breakaway.
Hope to write more about the trip soon!

I really gotta sleep already.
gd night world.

I love youtube because of Wong Fu Productions :)

2010-05-21T23:57:00.002+08:00

3 things today.

1) It's already midnight now.. I havent even pack an ant. Tmr morning Stephy is reaching and I gotta fetch her

2) The problem is, I got a plan to draw to email to my boss before my flight. and my main problem is i don't feel like drawing now or tmr morning but flight is in the afternoon so I have to either draw them now or tmr morning but i don't feel like doing it or in short i don't want to do it<.> Can't she let me have a break in peace? grrrrrrr

3) i've just watched Wong Fu weekends ep. 16. ('//\\')<

my face got taner coz my dark eye circle has spread all over

2010-05-20T00:30:00.004+08:00

3 things today:
(i) i reached office at 6.55am. Had my lunch at 5pm. Will be working on drawings at 3am after this. I must! wake up at 3am later or else... i should fake an mc tmr coz both of my bosses will kill me.

(ii) i havent done my poo poo today.

(iii) i cant stop worrying about Bali this Saturday. coz i am born with last minute gene u see. the few last short trips i've been, I forgot my toothbrush, face toner, bbcream, that-thing-with-wings, not enough clothes =.= money changed on the one day before etc u-name-it i-did-it =.=

i wonder how would the world react if i reach the airport only to realize i forgot my passport. sure enough i cant go back home coz my papa will kill me even before i enter the house.

gulp*.
_hr0040_

sittin with a tummy flown out. hr 2210

2010-05-17T22:06:00.007+08:00

hey there, told ya i would update my blog more often already :)
because yesterday, suddenly i had a glimpse of the list of months at the bottom right list.
I wish to keep the list going recording what I do everyday (did i jz say everyday? buahaha)
emotions I felt
people I've met
things I've seen
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here goes.
What had I been doing recently in my new company?
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Recently, we had this superb gigantic project.
young clients with loose budget.
(it's seldom to have clients saying "I don't care about the money. Give me nice homes :D
weeee happy)
what more can an interior designer ask, u tell me.
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thanks to my boss, he gave me opportunity to just play with my design.
we are attempting to play with deform and deconstruction.

these are the works of zaha hadid.
i'll kill u if u ask "wth is that?"
she's from Mars. look at her work.

:$ <- random
if you think it is easy pea work, i'll kill you too.
coz i've to go to Mars to come out with something "buildable" like that.
nonetheless, it's hard.
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ah well, recently I've been busy watching Wong Fu productions on youtube.
When Audrey Chan, first showed me one of their vids,
i'm pretty impatient coz their vids r pretty long compared to usuals.
another thing was, i was in office watching with the risk being caught by boss
suddenly standing behind and watching with me.
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i jz realize, i'm not the only weird one in this world.
there are still people who are so sentimental out there :)
-one of them is lee yuk ling whom i jz discovered recently too-

i stole this pic from ppl's facebook. lol
i jz love the photographs he took.
photographs that capture emotions in them. true artist.

again, i'm so tired...
whenever i am, i'd really really really wish I'll reach a meadow,
with only grass and a tree from far away, and the sky.

had a lovely dinner with papa.
blessed Monday.

Coming trip: Bali

2010-05-16T23:14:00.004+08:00

Dear Bali,
When i was younger, I've always wanted to visit you.
I would google your images.
There's this very angelic-lookin white chapel where I wish it's where I'll be walking down the isle
with my papa.
When yin first went there few years back,
I was so envious I wish I can wear an invisible suit and hide in her luggage.

But now, it is 6 days counting down till I touch your bare soil with my feet.

I suddenly feel scared.

Initially, it was 11 of us going.
Jean.
Stephy.
Liz.
Sam and Eugene.
James and Jojo.
Kylye and Hauwei.
Nanako yin and Vincent.

Now, James and Jojo suddenly aren't going.
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I am scared because it feels like Final Destination.
u got what i mean?
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*punched in the face*
ok ok sorry.
I'm an artist.
Pardon me and my imagination.
We're going to have an awesome SAFE trip :)
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if anything ever happened to me, tell my mom I really love her.

it's been a while.

2010-05-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

I've just done some blog hopping, around the links at the right side here ------>

I cant seem to read them all.

Dear friends, they all have quite a number of updates already! Each one of them. This explains why I cant read all. (1 x minimum of 4 updates x 19blogs = a lot.)

I haven't been in touch with just about anybody. I don't know what they're doing, how they've been doing, where they've been during the holidays etc.

Maybe sometime after, you wouldn't even recognise me on the street.

I want a gathering :)

ming talk

2010-04-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

I'm facing another life changing decision.
I couldn't wish for more guidance now.
Hope everything will turn out right.

Hope.

what a boring life

2010-03-21T13:10:00.004+08:00

I'm so bored I think I'm dying man...
Doing "Friends Exposed" questionnaires on Facebook proves it's really at a chronic stage.

What a boring life. Working life is awfully dull right now.

It's hard to find activity partners that shares the same interest and hobby.
Particularly this period of life.
Peeps just flown overseas to further study, and work, and further study.
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And work.

*
I WANNNNA goooo onnnn aaaaa field trippppppppp.

I wana go to some rural area. Running around in short pants and summer top.
Taking some nice photographs and sipping green tea on the wooden bench under some shady tree.

I just wanna leave the town, away from the city and lie down on the cold grass talking nonsensical shiz and laugh about it for days. cries* T.T

| life is obviously at my bottommost line now | yes. i'm unhappy obviously. |

I wanna run like a 15 again. just who cares if i look like a retard.

going on a field trip packing all the junk foods in the car.
music blasting along the highway.
leaving the city far far away.

i love to see how people from other walks of life
going about their routine..

Taking some nice photographs..
(I can really go insane imagining i can go to a rural village like this!)
where children are friendly and neighbors are kind~

hiking up some altitude for a view to die for..

dazed by beautipul nature and wonder why and when do we start gettin ourselves
entangled in urban race..

just a sun and a horizon..

shiz city stop playing bad romance over and over again.

sickofit

2010-03-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

b.e.r.l.a.g.a.k

好喜欢你，知不知道~

2010-03-09T02:17:00.002+08:00

如果有一天
我回到从前
回到最原始的我
你是否会觉得我不错

如果有一天
我离你遥远
不能再和你相约
你是否会发觉我已经说再见

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道

如果有一天
梦想都实现
回忆都成了永远
你是否还会记得今天

如果有一天
我们都发觉
原来什么都可以
无论是否还会停留在这里

也许可是让我想得太多
也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇
就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说

当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你找
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你
也能成为嗜好

啦～啦～
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
还喜欢你
知不知道
啦～啦～

是这样的

2010-02-28T12:36:00.003+08:00

原来，友情没比爱情来的强。。
友情只会在爱情不在的时候出现。。
每当有了爱情，友情就会自动消失在眼前。

it's so hot

2010-02-24T00:48:00.001+08:00

Goodah morning (12.48am) =.=

Sounds of clock ticking and fan spinning above, weather: indifferent coz i wasn't payin attention. Mood: focus. Today's a Wednesday.

Today, I flew back to college to pay the rsvp for our Convo ceremony cum prom night on March 6th, at Holiday Villa, Subang (mana ni?) Many of them aren't attending coz most are doing degree overseas (I thought of ditching it too, but decided to go coz apparently, i'm not pursuing higher level of ed, so prolly it'd be my one-in-a-lifetime graduation ceremony.)

The weather was so vegetably scorching hot! I guess it was 42'c. Stay indoor otherwise you'll get riped. The thing I hate the most is to sweat a bucket after morning showers =____=

Then, I flew home to Port Klang for a small project meeting. Though the weather is like a burning hell, and I was sweating cows n pigs (STICKY), still it feels better than to sit in an enclosed air cond office drawing 3D and plans.

Then there is this noob thing where i left my hp at kylye's place. Nearly got killed by dad's laser stares. DENG! Why do I always leave my stuffs like everywhere??? T____T

getting sleepy du du du di di di di di da da l8r!

Nin cho yi ah!

2010-02-15T16:58:00.004+08:00

Hahahaha It's so obvious that I've just stolen somebody's photo! I was just too lazy to rummage through my subfolder of subfolder of subfolder of subfolder of photos. No kiddin man.. I gotta start getting all the files systematically backup since I'll be free until March.

The other day I asked Samantha Chong for the link to her blog. Mengada betul.
Jaimekkkl.wordpress.com stands for Jaime Kylye Koh Khai Lye.wordpress.com.

So unfair. How can someone have 2 engrish names right? Must lecture her the next time we meet :>
anyway, call me Ming the next time u see me. Jean was just urm.... childhood infatuation after I've watched X-Men during Form 5. *coughs coughs*

So this is the Jaime Kylye that I've mentioned. And this is obviously the photo that I've stolen from her blog. Look at her. Cho lo betul. wakakaka

*

Today, I forcefully dragged my mom to drive me back to Kampung Idaman coz I wana visit my godparents. *actually I ain't a noobie driver, but my parents just won't let me drive on my own* or maybe I am :P. I'd freak out whenever I saw a car in my rearview mirror seriously ~.~ Love my godparents dearly I don't know why. Love Kampung Idaman dearly coz that's the place I grew up. *deng, how many time I've spoken bout this ~.~*
Sometimes, CNY just makes u turned gay coz it's when you feel your eyes are alilbitteary hot watching everyone comes together for a reunion gathering. Just laughters and wailing when someone got "Banlat". Tee hee.

Gong Xi Fa Chai people :)

Gay. Go away. F!

2010-02-11T14:06:00.002+08:00

On a nice Thursday afternoon, I'm home alone facebook-ing, downloading songs, chatting over msn etc. Such a perfect to time to clean up my messy things, yet, there's always tomorrow :P I don't know why I'm sucha lazeeeeeeeee arse! teehee

I wonder how many tomorrows I have, coz it's 3 days down to Chinese New Year. It's the year of the Tiger babeh :P

This year around, it hasn't been so good for me. In fact, it was so dramatic I thought I'm filming a drama or something... A new lunar year is coming. Pray that it's going to be a new start. NEW LIFE FOR ME!

*~>*~>*

Yesterday, I went back to pack my stuff in the office and left without saying. Before that, I scolded the secretary and the gay poopface, "Don't go around telling untrue stories, or next life, you'll be mute" @__@ I know I'm rude, but it's just too fed up. More of anger. Since I'm leaving anyway, I wanted to make sure people that had been twisting the truth around isn't going to get away clean. Not with me. I believe, everyone has to be responsible for the words they say.

I thought leaving would make things easier for me, coz who cares to explain, I just don't want to see those faces ever again. But, I was informed I have to personally collect my February pay cheque. Can't they just bank in to me? Drives me nut, really.

(stares out at the beaming sun and reminds me, i have to do the laundry! lololol -typing faster-)

All the shits started from a gay poopface that has been talking around too much.

"Staying back late is nothing wrong," boss said. Of coz boss said so. Best is if you would sleep in the office isn't it? Hey, we're not Bangladeshi coolie ok? We have parents to care of.
"Staying back late gossiping about boss with senior and said wana waste the electricity and air cond, is it really nothing wrong boss?" if they would let me explain, I wouldn't went crazy like that. Fuck.

I find this hypocrite gay is so hateful I regret why do I choose to work under one roof with him in the first place. He's the collegemate too, or should I address, she is the collegemate too? YEAHright. Don't know what shit thing he might have been said back during college days. All I know is, I can see him talking nicely to someone,(with all the gay laughing gestures =__=) and turn around telling us bad stuffs about that someone.

Now everything is blamed on me, boss said I spread rumours about him, said I go around making people dislike him. @!%^%$*!! When in fact, it was people coming to ask me, "Hey, U same college as him? He's so annoying and kepochee etc.. He eavesdropped people's conversation etc" So I guess, my fault is due to, I came from the same college as him. ok. HER.

Even said so much misunderstandings and boss doesn't care to listen to me explaining (coz she said I was leaving. She doesn't want to know who's wrong and who's right?) wtf does that mean, a criminal, once being detained for crime, doesn't have the right to explain coz he's going to be hung anyway? shitty boss. Hope next time she got the world misjudging her and wouldn't listen her explaination. Feel me then.

Yet, I don't care, I just wana leave and not seeing those faces again. Now... they insist I must personally go collecting my paycheque, when they can conveniently bank in to me?

Sometimes, I'd like to say.. Don't push me so hard.

p/s: Sorry to keep mentioning gay gay gay gay gay. I don't discriminate or hold prejudice towards people's sexual preference. Other than the one from my college and office. *peace*

ok. runs to do laundry.

So Yesterday

2010-02-06T10:11:00.004+08:00

Stepi once wrote, "Don't explain uself to anyone."

Even if it costs ur name and ur pride...?

I once told meself, "Stay away from people who talks too much, with twisted fact."

I regret I gave people chance to twist facts about me.

I wonder what other things that might have been retold with how much percentage of accuracy... but-- in the first place, do things need to be retold from one to another?

when all these whiles, the fucking initiator was none than the story-passer?

Tell me how to not hate people like this.

But it is my own fault. People warned me even from years ago. Don't mess with chao ah kua. I was A.l.r.e.a.d.y w.a.r.n.e.d. And I was the one that chose to be under one roof with people like this.

It hurts my pride to know i cant explain myself. (coz who cares?)

On a better point, I've learned a lesson.

I always believe, "Everything happens for a reason."

God wants me to be stronger. I was surprised I didn't even cry.

Because I know, I have more important things to care about. Important things like "What should I have for dinner tonight with mumma?" Shouldn't have wasted time getting all reeled up with petty things and people like these are. Isn't it.... FML?

When tomorrow I'd look back, everything's gonna be so yesterday. SO yesterday~>!!

and jam all the songs inside. and go grocery shopping with mumma :)
These are the important things. Others, please fuck off from my life.

Photoshop & Polaroid

2010-02-04T00:19:00.007+08:00

I don't know why it is underlined here and I can't make it go away! DENG!

(k, let's pretend the underline doesn't exist.)

Today I was trying to create polaroid photos effect. (the underline doesn't exist) It is those kind of camera that uses film,(the underline doesn't exist) and the photo comes out right after you snapped a view. (the underline doesn't exist) I saw people (the underline doesn't exist) did those in (the underline doesn't exist) FB and I like it a lot. (the underline doesn't exist) Sentimental (the underline doesn't exist) and raw = my phavoritez (the underline doesn't exist!!!!!!!!!!!!).

look, it's me! lololol nice right? put it into a polaroid look-a-like background and it turn out
lookin like some kind of emo photos that feels, urm,
sentimental. (my phavs) And I love to insert captions INTO my photos too.

Ah~~ I'm satisfied but--
I still couldn't produce those old photos effect.
Pretendin that I was from 1930 couldn't be cooler XD

L8tr!

Sunday evening

2010-01-31T22:04:00.003+08:00

Ok la... I'm this 宅. I just woke up at 5pm after taken breakfast..
and search for something to laugh :P
teehee

p/s: This guy talked too fast =.= whereas I have speech deficiency. (I can't talk too fast)

p/p/s: I want to shop for more CNY clothes!

L o L

2010-01-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

Came across this guy's vid in youtube
He has about 150k subscibers man
Quite a number of vids he has got
He maybe lame! or Insane! (imagine he plays all the role himself)
or else, I think he's kinda smart! lololol

He's slang is comfortable too.. Go have a look. HAHA It did crack me up.

Enjoy~^*>~*>~

Kids these day

2010-01-23T20:43:00.003+08:00

Kids these days, those that were born late 90s
They have wiii, psp, cell-hwengs(cellphones =.=)
Where we only got those during Form 4!

They know about Facebook and msn
and I was like WOT-THE-?

They carry an N-gage during Std 3?!

And they learn seriously head-scratching jargon.
Like my cousin sis (Std 6) asked me,
"Hey, do you have your syrup already?"
"No, I don't like syrup"
"Me too, haven't come."
"Really?"
"Yeah, abo you can ask my mommy.. I don't lie to you"

k. continue checking mails.

Then few minutes later, she went ransacking my bag,
and I heard she murmured some syrup thingy again.

Then, she asked "Why you don't like syrup?"
I said, "Walao, emmmm... coz I like teh tarik."
(starting to feel perplexed)

When she got home only I realized why is she so curious about my syrup
after I saw 'something' in my bag. Something by the brand of Kotex =.=

*
Deng, it doesn't need a genius to tell you now, what does she meant by syrup.
And yeah, I don't like syrup.
Syrup makes me have uncontrolled emotions. HAHA +__+

*~*~*~*~*~*
Anyone has 2nd hand car in good condition for sale?
Do contact me!
:)

^signing off^

2010-01-12T16:22:00.001+08:00

don't need your opinion.

Fuck You Very Much lyrics
Songwriters: Allen, Lily Rose; Kurstin, Gregory;

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor

So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it

Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you

You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

2010-01-10T22:37:00.002+08:00

今晚的天气很冷

SUnday again

2010-01-10T22:18:00.002+08:00

suddenly I'm missing all the friends, whom seem so faraway~

I ate too much garlic and my breath smelled like.... garlic?

I love making my parents laugh.

I love to sleep the day away.

I just can't continue watchin Lady Gaga's mv! what style is that?

I hate Sunday nights.

le sigh. Bye!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION 2010!

2009-12-26T21:20:00.008+08:00

Hey people! I'm back!
(it's just a traditional opening phrase, not that anyone realize coz this blog has been abandoned
for cat's sake)

Christmas has just passed and it's the new year next.
HAH. Gotta come up with a new year resolution already!
and shitty shitty shit bom bom.
My pass new-year-resolution was never or not really about kiampui-ing.
But this year, I really need to take serious note of it already!!

ARGHHH nothing feels worse than wearing your favorite dress with that biji tummy flying loosely. Imagine I have 2 =.= like seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (shaking hands and face wildly)

k. besides that, I wanna save money for our Bali Trip!!

Dang, recalling how long it has been since I last went for a 'real' trip.
I hope I can bump into 715 there. (imagine he's in his beach pants and 6 abs muahahahaha)

eh, pls dun say me siao po k.
remember we bump into Christopher Lee at Malacca,
where earlier in the car, Ms Veron so just mentioned,
"WAIz! Hope can bump into Lee Ming Sun later!"
"Why?"
"Malacca is his hometown ma!"

I wanna earn more money too =.= (pretty hard coz I'm jzt an employee grrr)

My fourth resolution is, I wana be a project designer!! *semangat*
I hope by the end of next year, I'd be able to manage a project independently.
It is a tough task given the time frame but I will do it!!
I don have much time to postpone my goals to another year.
Hey, 2010 I will be 1-- err 22 already.
I can foresee tht it's gonna be a tough year for me. Bring it on!!

***
-ends-
***

hey. it's me. today.

feeling terribly boring.on a saturday.sigh.blame the weather.

slacky!

and sad too. i hate unproductive day.
unproductive boring and slacky day.

so I went to work out a lil.
the weather makes it impossible to sweat.
i turned out more miserable =.=

i want my face to be like this.
with no excessive f.l.e.s.h
or m.e.a.t
or f.a.t.s
or watever-bad-names-u-call-it =.=

k. tis is my signature pose.

yours truly.
(continues to slacking around the house =.=)

blessed

2009-12-12T15:49:00.003+08:00

*listenin to boom boom pow*
(lol epic k song wink*;)

certain things are to be kept classified at least for now
but i wana say today, finally my dilemma has come to an END.
WADDARELIEVE! :D

Aiyo, sometimes I felt so lucky and blessed.
Things fall into places, with a little prayer and effort.
It's like someone is watching over from above.
And pave ur way along as you strive.

Thanks if there is one :)

o f h y p o c r i s y a n d s u r v i v a l

2009-12-09T22:38:00.002+08:00

s o m e w h e r e i d o n ' t b e l o n g

s e e i n g p e o p l e w i t h 2 f a c e s e v e r y d a y

s e e i n g h o w p e o p l e c o n d e m n a t t h e b a c k t h e n t u r n a r o u n d
a n d s m i l e l i k e a n o b e d i e n t p u p p y e v e r y d a y

a l l t h e s e r e a l l y d i s g u s t m e t o t h e c o r e

t h e s e a r e t h e ' s m a r t ' u r b a n p e o p l e

i w o u l d r a t h e r b e ' d u m b ' t h e n

h o p e i w o n ' t t u r n e d i n t o o n e o f t h o s e d i s g u s t i n g s p e c i e s

我们两~

2009-11-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

*showing an indifferent relaxed face*
Am blogging on a cool Sunday evening.
Life is fine.

(I guess I gotta resume writing, of coz without pics, coz still I am too lazy to upload off my camera)
lol

Friday the 27th was a public holiday, also Kylye Koh's 21st and Kuuki Teh's 20th Birthday! woots
HAPPY BIRTHDAYS! ^^

The night before I had a blast singing K with fellow colleagues and bosses at Garden's RedBox,
my senior sudah mau kahwin, so we had a sort-of bachelorette night's for her.
Was having a really good time cept they dun serve sushi ish!
Then, off to Sanctuary to have a dance with them pabo sekalian.
Lol bukan main "zak", crowded with uncles and seafood sekalian.
We had a good dance though! :D
reached home at 5 and kena nagged kao kao *oops*

Then, Friday, the Legendary Stephy came to KL.
She was stayin at my place over the weekend.
No seafood, no bahkutteh.. coz we were loitering around KL.
And we both regretted it. watchamadoit.
Hangin around Aeon wouldn't be as bad as loitering around super packed KL grrrr!
We got really tired and I wasn't allowed to drive! Omg -,-
On Sunday morning, I thought at least we can have a decent Klang BahKutteh breakfast,
manatau we overslept and it was raining cats n dogs. I sent her off to bus stand at 8.30.
sigh!
There it goes our legendary meet up! At least we went back to college mamak
to........ sip back some old college memories.
(guess i don't have to say how much I really miss college times!)

Tmr gotta resume working again.
Usually I don't go out on Sunday night. I gotta pull back working mind else I
don't know what I will be doing the next workin day =.=
chiu! kakaka

~
over time, I've learnt that,
if life has all the reasons it takes to make you unhappy,
you only have a reason back for life, that is to be happy.
~
no one can drag you down unless you allow yourself to.
Tough here I will stand, so stand with me :)
~

SEE YA peeps!

old shoes

2009-11-08T23:56:00.004+08:00

i am really pissed off now.
if got hp dun reply, might as well donate to old folks home.
if got hp no credit, can put into the fridge let it hibernate.
if got credit but dowan to reply, ta ma de tq very much.
i swear with my head that would the last time!

: )

2009-11-07T11:39:00.001+08:00

yeah.
Saturday.
Good time to chill out :)
I love Saturday the most.

l i f e

2009-11-05T00:52:00.003+08:00

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/11/4/nation/5035936&sec=nation

heard this news few days ago
but jz now, accidentally read the whole news
and one of the victim's blog
how sad +_+

3 bright youngsters died just like that, on a Sunday evening
(while I was having warm dinner with mom at bukit tinggi)

www.jameskhor.blogspot.com

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=598111550&ref=search&sid=664807749.692386226..1

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=805568970&ref=search&sid=664807749.1598534941..1

they're just like anyone of us
.......university, travel, photography, fun, live, love, life.....

Just not long ago we planned to go for a waterfall trip at Hulu Langat.
when mishaps happened, usually i will tell myself,
these are all predestined by God,
at least I'll feel better.

life is really fragile.
in fact, the most fragile of all.
to us, glass is fragile,
but if a glass is broken,
although shattered into pieces, they are still..... glass.

We say paper is limpless,
but if it is teared into pieces,
it is still crumbs..... of papers.

We cried love is fragile,
and we swear the broken heart will never be mend again,
and yet the next thing we knew,
we sing, '....and i fall in love, all over again~...."

of all the fragility,
life stands at the furthest tip.
If a human dies,
the remaining is not human, not love, not glasses nor papers.
When living things die, they decay by nature and slowly by slowly,
they seep into thin air and disappear.

Ashin once wrote in 如烟，
为何人生最後会像一张纸屑
还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳~

live everyday as if it were your last.

a walk to remember

2009-10-26T00:52:00.003+08:00

S T epi Spore- 091026, hr0128 : drk coffee jst nw, canot sleep nw =,=
i miss our tea time yumcha at mamak, i miss we ate lunch at ons n uncle jimmy ler..

nasai, made me suddenly miss college times so much
at the same time feel so helplessly growing up
everyday we wake up is another day we depart from previous beautiful memories

beautiful, beautiful memories

classic revival

2009-10-24T14:58:00.005+08:00

Hello hello~!
It's a Saturday and i'm feeling so gay =)
i love to sit at home "pu neng" (layin eggs) -__-
frustrated with certain affairs but that's aside :)

Last 2 weeks the design for a classical bungalow has finally been confirmed!
yeah!
I'm so happy with it.
if you want to do it, do it with your heart.
if not, you will never get the best out of it.

I actually love these kind of classical elements.
It is exactly what I would like for my 'little bear house'
(@_@ still remember my little bear house? wakaka)

this is a master lounge.
(waseh, bigger than my house living area lol)
the right hand side door opened to the masterbedroom.

this is another view of the master lounge. The door beside the settee
opens to their walk-in wardrobe.

This is what you saw when you walk into the walk-in wardrobe.
(waseh... look glamourous enough. Like the wardrobe of Marilyn Monroe)
XD

Jieng jieng jieng!
This is the dressing table. Look so revival xia right? kakaka
reli looked like what I saw in the drama of Lei Kei / Zhe Yin and Xiu Fong Fong / forgot-who-edi.

Like a performance make-up room during those opera times.
yeah!! *\^^/*
not bad mah, right? *winks ;P

=ends=

i want to travel to the deepest nature.
The highest mountain and the widest meadow :)

让我们的青春无法无天！！

2009-10-16T00:58:00.007+08:00

the other day i read in the NST about 2 once very famous female icons
: Brigitte Bardot :
and
: Sophia Loren :

They put 2 pictures for each of the celebrity,
one being their high years, and one being recent years (mind you, they're already 70++) @.@

I. Was. Shocked.
:
:
OF COURSE we know, our look gets changed and aged as time passed by.
My mom sometimes pointed out to me, "Wah this auntie last time sure look very pretty one."
Then I was like, indifferent. (lol, coz I don't care how pretty the auntie used to be! lol)

I was shocked because.............
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
..
the difference is a devastating vast canyon (=.=)

Sophia Loren during the yearsss back

Sophia Loren at the age 73
*

Brigitte Bardot at the yearsss way back into time

Brigitte Bardot now.

I was like weowww~
and Weooww again.

(1) Even at the age of 73, Sophia Loren still taking very good care of every littlest
detail of her beauty. She even has cosmetics and skin care product
that were specially formulated for her.

(2) Brigitte Bardot, on the other hand, has given up and age as how the time
wants her to age. She is now an animal rights activist.

[the article was questionin about the difference between how women choose
to age. Some try like shit hell, diet day in day out to maintain that
youth even by the age of freaking 73.
While other prefer to age gracefully.
Having a warm supper with family instead of slimming powder.
Having a lazy movie session wit loved ones instead of working out like a cow
to maintain that 24" waist]

OH YEAH.
What I want to say is...
REmember to be beautiful when you're still young.
Doll yourself up.
Heave a breath, take a step and have fun.
LOL

This is what I constantly reminding myself too, ms workaholic.

blue tuesday

2009-10-13T16:19:00.002+08:00

been impatient
been losing temper
been talking impolitely
i've been doing these consciously and subconsciously.

don't know why i always forget
parents are the only ones in the world that
truly love us for who we are.
never judge
and never need our courtesy to sit straight like we supposed to do in public.

T___T
.
..
...
..
.
sigh~

If you cannot change your mentality, you cannot change a thing!

2009-10-04T10:36:00.002+08:00

I once saw a friend's favorite quotation in facebook, goes
"Life's biggest obstacles are fear and laziness"

I paused and thought for a good ol' while, how freaking true.
At least, very much true if applied to my life.
I know my own weaknesses,
but I live along with them without having much care until recently, it really struck me that
these weaknesses are becoming obstacles in my life.

Fear.
So many childish fears.
I depend too much on past experience to judge my present life.
How unfair to myself, and how unfair to the people I've hurt.

Laziness, is procrastination.
Still remember my high school philosophy, Impress success with effort.
I used to be a cyborg. I love being energetic and I love to lead.
Where goes my ''If you want to do it, do it now'' brain microchip?
Where hides my ''If you want to do it, do it to the best'' hot blood streams?

Everyone has their own weaknesses.
But when those weaknesses started to pose blocks in your life...
you need to correct them.
Else you are just a useless drunk who gets drunk at 7am in the morning,
and wasted the day away sleeping beside bus stand.
>.<

Yo. Pump fist into the air, tie a towel around the forehead and start doing what you supposed
to do =) Have a nice day*~+

~ Layer~

2009-10-03T13:15:00.007+08:00

Early of every month is the crucial part of financial planning
How many birthdays in line
What important things to get etc etc
& Savings.

If not, by the 3rd - 4th week.. I'll start taking obento to office d.
(coz bo lui liao)
-.-"
coz eating around my office place is expensive giler D:

+
I have obsession about long shirts lately.
Due to body proportion, short shirts can make me look like a (insert anythin retarded here)
= ___ =

After much consideration, I still have the urgency to use 1/3 of the paycheck
to shop for new items! Which of coz, after much consideration again,
that is something impossible T__T

haha! :D:D:D

Wow... This one can wear to office too!

I love this skirt. Saw Stephy wore it last time and fell in love with it.
Casual and not too 'personalitized' wakaka

If only I have FAIR skin tone! pfft!
XD

It's Lunar 8-15. HAPI MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!

Saturday afternoon

2009-09-26T17:33:00.005+08:00

This rendering took me 3 hours on a Saturday afternoon.
scorching hot weather made me too excited to do nothing.
This is the FIRST 3D that is not of office job.
weeeeeeee*
+
+
so heng today.
Cant stand people talk shit without thinkin
I feel like exploding now

yinnnnn helppp~~~~~ +___+

lupppss

2009-09-22T22:07:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is wednesday, start to resume working.
Will be heading to 1u after work for a movie with pretties
I love it.
I hope there will be frequent outings like these
so tat working won't be too monotonous..

like go to work, take bus,
back from work, take bus,
reach home, eat sleep.

:P

And today I've done my rendering about 8pm (just now)
I love it.
Coz usually I'd do last minute work til 1-2am
But this time, I loathe it so much i decided to start earlier, then got it done earlier

I love to be ahead of deadlines!

*double joy*

Going anywhere as long as it will be with you

心里话

2009-09-21T21:51:00.006+08:00

有朋友说我都喜欢那一些 “很梦幻” 的东西

嘻嘻是啊。。。。现实里找不到的东西，自然而然就会想要，是吧。
。
。

如果我能知道他在想什么就好。
。
。
。
不知不觉满脑想的有又是他了。

随便。
开心就好 ^^
不多想了。

id.industry

2009-09-19T19:36:00.008+08:00

voila... unlike me huh? to update a blog now... with picture samor haha
(yukling's house later for her bday celebration yet i'm here blogging)

Recently, occasional catchin up with friends will ask me what am I currently doing?
me: working.

What do I work again?
me: interior design.

ohh... Then actually what does an interior designer do?
me: design building interiors??? @_@

*
A client bought a bungalow, wants to design the house interior
or
A corporate client wants to design his office
or
A company wants to design an exhibition booth
or
Yin wana design a cute kennel for Ichigo! :D
*
hahaha

there are many processes in this industry

But, right now, me as a small small junior designer kakaka
does 3D visualizations and drawing plans and detail drawings

still a long way to go!
so much to learn, so much to learn, so much to learn!

wanna share some works here!
not all are nice, but these are my favorites \(^^)/

a guy's room.. i like it.. wish my room would be like this..... s.o.o.n? keke

Display your collectibles... how cool. I love it!

modern minimalist dining area.

A k-room.

What we like doesnt equal what the clients like.
Some are rejected and some needs amendments.

I hope to see my first project being built up and the client moves happily into their
new home.

OK! yukling sms-ed edi.
Chiaoz! Happy Raya Holiday everyone!

go.away

2009-09-14T00:32:00.002+08:00

Wasei
These things are always troublesome to me

Same pattern always recurring from me
I might as well sew a note,

"go.away."

heave-a-big-sigh

B u-selv

2009-09-11T21:46:00.004+08:00

Be Y.o.u.r.s.e.l.f
-end of story-

Don't know what to write (as usual)
Jz felt like updating this lonely blog
I've sort of abandoning it since god-knows-when

I don't like to write about what i did
I prefer to emo about what I am thinking

Hmmm...
I'm thinkin to sleep my ass off on a Friday night
I wanna go shopping and shopping and walking and shopping
-no money-

I wana dye my hair dark brown
-no guts-

:
Nowadays, I'm practising my ability to focus on doing a task
The thing is I'm a hyper sensitive person
A single pin drop can alert me
Easily distracted.
I wana be a cool person (bwahahahaha =.=)
coz to me,
people who can concentrate so well whilst doing a work is.....

h.o.u..y.o.w...y.e.n.g ah!

p/s: I saw a guy at lrt.
He was so focus while spacing out.
I also feel yeng.

tsk.